Woooooooaaahhhhh
*is in shock* I feel so out of it. The be perfectly honest, I feel like I'm floating on the clouds. Yes, sterio type, I know. My heart feels like it is not beating right. ^_^ But in a good way. I feel so amazingly good. I'm happy.
Ok, there is a simply beautiful place here in town. It is a park. As an entry way, it is like a greek clumn lain. Vines grow around the beams. It has a gorgeous pond with two fountains and huge Chinese fish of all colors that swim allong the surface of the water. It has other amazingly pretty things too, like a gazibo (don't know if I said that right). I have gone there many times. It is my favorite place here. It is so peaceful and calming. I decided I wanted to show it to the love of my life. ^_^ The last few times I have gone there, all I could think of was taking him to see it, and sharing it. I showed it to Mark today. We walked there in the evening. It was around 6:30 when I got there. We walked through the greek looking thing. (He made me promise not to tell anyone, but he said he really loved it there. Which surprised me a bit. I mean, I know guys and girls think differently, so I didn't think he would like it that much. I was so happy he liked it as much as I did.) We watched the fish for a while, and he put his arms around me as we stood there. The fountain was beautiful, and it made a beautiful sound on the pond. The fish were watching us, like they knew we were in love. ^_^ We talked there for a long time. Then he said we should walk. ^_^ but we did not end up walking far at all. We walked to the gazibo and sat on the park bench. We talked there for a long time more. He told me how much he was going to miss me when he left. He told me he loved me. I had my head on his shoulder, his arm was around me. He kept kissing my forehead and my cheek. *blushes* I knew he was going to kiss me when he told me the story about when his father first kisses his mother.
He has taken it very slow with me. For that, I am so greatful to him. It makes me respect him even more that he is willing to go my pace.
Anyway, I was a little afraid of it, so I put my face in his neck. I was really just hiding. >.< I was afraid a bit. It was my first real kiss. (I have been kissed once before, but it was different than a real kiss) SO I was skiddish. But while I was sitting there in his arms, and he was talking to me, telling me he loved me (and I could tell he meant it) I somehow relaxed. I let myself look into his eyes and hold them. I'd been avoiding staring into his eyes for too long, because I knew that when I did, I would loose my resolve to avoid his kiss. (Untill tonight, I had decided not to kiss him yet. In an odd way, it was my goal. Partly so that I could honestly tell me mom that he hadn't kissed me yet. Stupid, I know, but I didn't want her to worry.) But as I stared into his eyes, I totally lost myself in his beautiful eyes, and I stopped resisting. *blushes* He kissed me.
There is a little more to the story of today, but I think I will leave it till later. I will just say I never have felt this way before. I'm in love I suppose. ^_^ I'm not sure I have ever been in love before. I thought I had been, but it was different. Perhaps it is because he is my quote, un-quote "soul mate" I think it might be that. I saw a quote today that made me think of Mark and I. I might not get it exactly, but it said Being with you, and loving you this way makes me see why all the other relationships never quite worked out. I'll have to find the exact quote for you!