Please do not take this for anything other than the truth
I am a physcotic bitch. I cannot ever let anything go.
I can't do anything and feel right about it. I second guess everything, and still make wrong decisions everytime.
I try really hard to not let this constant thunderstorm over my head keep me down, but no matter how much i try to force it to retire to the back of my brain...
It is always still there, and i know this. The only thing that changes is how much i let other people see it.
I need to start counseling and not just keep talking about it.
I don't think i am scared, but at the same time i know i probably am in a way....and perhaps that is one of the things keeping me from making the step.
A lot of times i think other people will find me weak and look down on me for seeking counseling. Perhaps i feel weakened and look down on myself for it.
Of course, i think that if i continue to deal with things the way that i am...then i truly am weak...and even worse, i am letting what others "may think" about me disturb the things that i need to do for myself.
More now i am looking at counseling in more of a positive light.
Obviously i am not dealing with the things going on in my head in a way that is healthy for me. Not to say that i, and only I am responsible for this, but talking to someone who is from an outside perspective..who can perhaps help me to look at things from another way too....
i dunno , got distracted...more later...
I can't do anything and feel right about it. I second guess everything, and still make wrong decisions everytime.
I try really hard to not let this constant thunderstorm over my head keep me down, but no matter how much i try to force it to retire to the back of my brain...
It is always still there, and i know this. The only thing that changes is how much i let other people see it.
I need to start counseling and not just keep talking about it.
I don't think i am scared, but at the same time i know i probably am in a way....and perhaps that is one of the things keeping me from making the step.
A lot of times i think other people will find me weak and look down on me for seeking counseling. Perhaps i feel weakened and look down on myself for it.
Of course, i think that if i continue to deal with things the way that i am...then i truly am weak...and even worse, i am letting what others "may think" about me disturb the things that i need to do for myself.
More now i am looking at counseling in more of a positive light.
Obviously i am not dealing with the things going on in my head in a way that is healthy for me. Not to say that i, and only I am responsible for this, but talking to someone who is from an outside perspective..who can perhaps help me to look at things from another way too....
i dunno , got distracted...more later...