Why does life suck????
Today was ok i guess. A bunch of us went to the Ann Arbor art fair even though we wernt able to look at any art cause we got there late. I did however buy a gay duck, that was fun. I also relize i havent posted in like for ever. Nothing in my life just seems to be working out. Its pretty bad when you like cry yourself to sleep everynight, right? Like maybe its me or maybe its not. This whole thing with Kim is really pissing me off, I am so upset about it I dont know if I should just say fuck it and give up or keep trying even though I feel that she was the one in the wrong I dont know I love Kim to death but this whole thing is bullshit. Then on top of that I have Doug that sits there and makes me feel much better about myself by telling me how immature I am with things and that I am stupid, its like thanks for all of your sympathy considering whats going on in my life right now. Then Danny and Jessi....what do I even say about them? Like, I like Jessi but sometimes I feel like i bother her and that she really only hangs out with me cause of Danny and Doug because we never really were that close ever. Then Danny....hmmmm....I dont really know, I also think Danny only likes me cause of Jessi and Doug, in fact I am almost positive that it true cause it has become blindingly obvious that with out them he wants nothing to do with me. I feel as if it is time for me to just give up.
Just give up...maybe thats what I should do. If I just dropped all my friends, kept to myself, and turn my cellphone off for a while it would be for the best. Then I could just see if I felt better about myself or maybe I just need to start hanging out with my old friends. The ones that I rudly gave up a year ago for my newer friends cause it was a better choice for me. I never had this amount of stress when I hung out with them. Maybe I should just go back to them for awhile. or maybe older friends, who knows. Wow I just read this whole thing and boy is it depressing and bitchy, oh well this is my space to vent HA HA! OK well I have to go I have to be up in like 4 hours.
Just give up...maybe thats what I should do. If I just dropped all my friends, kept to myself, and turn my cellphone off for a while it would be for the best. Then I could just see if I felt better about myself or maybe I just need to start hanging out with my old friends. The ones that I rudly gave up a year ago for my newer friends cause it was a better choice for me. I never had this amount of stress when I hung out with them. Maybe I should just go back to them for awhile. or maybe older friends, who knows. Wow I just read this whole thing and boy is it depressing and bitchy, oh well this is my space to vent HA HA! OK well I have to go I have to be up in like 4 hours.