JUST TELL ME

[rainbowchipmunk]

brimming with anger. going to take it out on my body. last night was the first time i drank so much i FORGOT part of the night. nervous break down yesterday- inconsiderate idiots, too high temps, car stalling, parents yelling and poo, gyno, blood drawing... i made it through the day without driving into a tree only because my car can't accelerate enough to do it with any sort of explosion or fatal injuries. i woke up and saw my pack of cigarettes only had 1 left. i bought that last night. i must've smoked at least half a pack during the time period i don't remember. whatever. the day was terrible, maybe its better i don't remember the night. i'm sliding backwards into a deep pit of hatred and self destructive cravings.

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