Does anyone even care anymore?
I'm going to make this short and not even close to all of the things that I want to say. But I'm in school and I shouldn't be doing this in the first place.
Well I'm sure all of you know that things with me and Sphen are fucked up beyond belief right now.
The whole Shannon thing now has only made things worse. I know I can suck it up and get over the fact that he wants to be friends with her again. I'm not some controling bitch (eventhough some of you guys think I'm being one) who is going to say, "Oh you can't be friends with her."
But I can't be past the parts where he told me that he knew I would be upset, but he was going to be friends with her anyway, Lied Hid from me the fact that he hung out with her all day before seeing me, Is being a hypocrite for saying all this bad shit about her and then going back.
And then to add to everything else like the Yelling/Bitching/Screaming at me almost everyday for shit that wasn't my fault (Like being friends with certian people), Making me cry everytime he yelled at me, Or anything else like that.
And he keeps saying 'I'm Sorry.' And all I can reply with is either 'I don't want to hear that anymore.' or 'If you feel like you're doing something wrong, then be sorry for it. But you don't, so don't bother saying that.'
So yea, this is where I am right now. All of my friends are saying to break up with him b/c he's being just like my ex Daniel. (Which, funny enough, he said he would never be like) But then Sphen's friends are saying to stick around and things will get better.
Honestly, I'm to the point where I just want to be away from everyone. B/c no matter what I say or do, I'm wrong and people are going to tell me differently. I care what you guys have to say, but I'm afraid I'm going to listen to the wrong person and do something that I don't want to.
So I'm going to leave this with some questions that go out to anyone who cares.
1. Should I stay or Should I go?
2. If I stay, How will things be better?
3. If I leave, Will any of you guys still talk to me?
And anything else you guys feel like adding to it. I'm still upset from this morning screaming/crying match. So I can't really think right now.
-Oh and just to add. Today would be 1 year and 4 months. Its funny how the worst things happen on the best days.-
♥ Ashley
Well I'm sure all of you know that things with me and Sphen are fucked up beyond belief right now.
The whole Shannon thing now has only made things worse. I know I can suck it up and get over the fact that he wants to be friends with her again. I'm not some controling bitch (eventhough some of you guys think I'm being one) who is going to say, "Oh you can't be friends with her."
But I can't be past the parts where he told me that he knew I would be upset, but he was going to be friends with her anyway, Lied Hid from me the fact that he hung out with her all day before seeing me, Is being a hypocrite for saying all this bad shit about her and then going back.
And then to add to everything else like the Yelling/Bitching/Screaming at me almost everyday for shit that wasn't my fault (Like being friends with certian people), Making me cry everytime he yelled at me, Or anything else like that.
And he keeps saying 'I'm Sorry.' And all I can reply with is either 'I don't want to hear that anymore.' or 'If you feel like you're doing something wrong, then be sorry for it. But you don't, so don't bother saying that.'
So yea, this is where I am right now. All of my friends are saying to break up with him b/c he's being just like my ex Daniel. (Which, funny enough, he said he would never be like) But then Sphen's friends are saying to stick around and things will get better.
Honestly, I'm to the point where I just want to be away from everyone. B/c no matter what I say or do, I'm wrong and people are going to tell me differently. I care what you guys have to say, but I'm afraid I'm going to listen to the wrong person and do something that I don't want to.
So I'm going to leave this with some questions that go out to anyone who cares.
1. Should I stay or Should I go?
2. If I stay, How will things be better?
3. If I leave, Will any of you guys still talk to me?
And anything else you guys feel like adding to it. I'm still upset from this morning screaming/crying match. So I can't really think right now.
-Oh and just to add. Today would be 1 year and 4 months. Its funny how the worst things happen on the best days.-
♥ Ashley