He soed his eyes shut
Every time I think about what I believe in, I find that it is less and less. My faith is slowly diminishing, or perhaps I am slowly letting go. I look into the shallow essence of so many others that blindly follow a traditional religion based on lies and hypocrocy. I've said this a numerous ammount of times before, but I'll say it one more time... I wish that I could create a false salvation and build a golden circle of faith around it. It's so easy for other people. They were taught to believe in God, and pray and follow their religion, and they're all fine with it. I feel like I'm the only one that constantly feels the need to question everything. I annalyze everything into oblivion and therefor cannot accept anything... especially not Catholosism. I find more sprituality in the wind lightly rusteling the leavs of a simple tree than I could ever get out of a multitude of closed minded highly neurotic Catholics chanting an organized prayer behind the walls of their god forsaken church. I refuse to be agnostic, because that as well is just too easy.
I've read a lot into Buddahism and Wicca, and from that I've created some sort of belief system that I am more or less content with, but there's always that void. And I'll hear people say how they were so empty and then they filled themselves with the love of God, and now they couldn't ask for anything more. My response is usually something along the lines of take your false salvation and shove it up your asshole where it belongs.
I hate using song lyrics written by anyone else other than yours truly because it's so unoriginal, but for those of you that would like to, feel free to look up the lyrics to 'God is Dead' by NIN. It explains my current state of mind.... or lack there of.
I've read a lot into Buddahism and Wicca, and from that I've created some sort of belief system that I am more or less content with, but there's always that void. And I'll hear people say how they were so empty and then they filled themselves with the love of God, and now they couldn't ask for anything more. My response is usually something along the lines of take your false salvation and shove it up your asshole where it belongs.
I hate using song lyrics written by anyone else other than yours truly because it's so unoriginal, but for those of you that would like to, feel free to look up the lyrics to 'God is Dead' by NIN. It explains my current state of mind.... or lack there of.