fuck
according to many places I do not follow or have the certain look that that company wants for their image, and the ones that do there is so much competition for those positions that either I can have no freedom with my appearance, or I can just have no job. As I type my hair is turning from the green that was sooooo hard to get in out. According to most companies I need to be the football team captain's girlfriend, or just look like her. The all american girl with blonde hair and blue eyes. The manager told me that he wasn't sure if I was worth $1,000 and told me to come back with natural color hair and natural color nails, while the bitch who got hired on earlier was tall, thin, white, shoulder length brown hair and looked like a fuckin idiot with no opinion. I hate this country, and every country. It would be awesome if I could be self employed, but I don't have resources, an idea, or an investor. so I guess I will have to stick to having natural color hair, and no crazy makeup, nail color etc. That sucks. thats not me and that hasnt been me for 6 years. I hate needing a job. I just don't understand why a buisness would choose someone who is a convicted felon over me just based on appearance, or someone who's goal is to fuck every hot/cute girl that works at that place. I hate this society and its fucked up values. All my life I have gotten nothing but fucked up looks from other people just cause I'm different and they don't even try to see what is underneath it all. Maybe they would see someone who actually has a work ethic and who wants to do well, but I just don't care what other people think about me, and neither should anyone else because if I did then that would mean I would have no identity and I would be just like everyone else. So this is dedicated to all those people out there that care too much about what people think and do not hire people just because they have removable polish or hair color. FUCK YOU.