Numb
I feel so numb right now,so blindsided. In all honesty though I should have seen this coming I just didn't want to think about it. So today I get online say hi to my friend and than ask him how his birthday was(it was a few days ago but we've both been busy so didn't talk)and he said it was ok. I said that I should take him out for a drink now that he's old enough. He said it wouldn't be a good idea and that it would interfere with his relationship with his girlfriend. I mean how the hell do I respond to that? I know that our friendship isn't the strongest but still OMG what do I do. I mean his girlfriend is the jealous type and he's admitted it but still does that give him the right to just say fuck it to our friendship? I don't know what to feel right now. I want to cry,to punch something,to feel nothing at all. I want to tell my close friends but really all they'll say is I told you so and thats not what I mean.