Thanksgiving.

[rainbow_deer]

I remember when I thought it was cool to have a screename.
And a bajillion buddies.
It was cool to put inside jokes in your profile, so people
would think you have friends and be cool.

I used to envy those that had boyfriends or even friends that
were guys. I couldn't stand feeling how I did.

But when I wasn't happy socially, at least my family was okay.
But now that I'm feeling confident and stuff,
my family is a wreck.

I HATE holidays.
I constantly cry.
I yell at people who aren't to blame.
I even push some people away.

Tomorrow's going to SUCK. I'm so psyched.

I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it all.
And this morning I told my mom that I just wanted
everything to be okay.
And be back to how it was.
We both admitted that we wanted my dad back.
How much better it would be.
How much easier it'd be.

I just wish there wasn't such thing as change, but
hah..that means good things wouldn't happen either.

I miss Jeff and I can't seem him until Monday.
Which will be our 13 month anniversary, (haha...)
And I met his brother last night.
Cool. Quiet. Super smart.
I beat him in Scrabble.
And that makes me happy.

I'm done ranting now.
Woot.