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what the hell is this shit? i try calling and they make me talk to his friends! what is that?! no sweetheart, when i call a certain someone, i expect to talk to that certain someone! dont get me wrong one bit...his FRIEND is cool and dont mind talking to her. but fuck! stay and talk to me for a while. i said this once and just because i love repeating myself...if we're gonna continue playing games, whats the use?! OH! and "ill call you back" or "ill call you when i get the chance". how many chances are you given to call me! whats more important then me! YOU WERE THE ONE that said no games! you said you were sorry! but are you really? it makes me wonder if you're telling me what i supposibly want to hear. not only that, but your "close" friends are trying to come between us now! yea, what close friends?! lol, friends that you've told me have used you one way or another. im not one to bad mouth anyone because im not going to give low-lifes any of my attention. why im writing this about them? lol, to only show that i have more and way better class then to be a two-faced person! it hurts to feel ignored! i told you once...dont make me sit around like a dumbass waiting! am i writing this cuz im upset right now? no, absolutely not! if its making you think, let it! does it get you mad what im saying? i dont know! but right now you're showing that you're really not caring! and thats what i need to know! THE TRUTH! i DESERVE to know more then the truth! you say you dont deserve me?! lol, you're wrong honey! you already have! but its you that needs to open up your eyes and see that what you've got in front of you is for your own good! and im not only saying that cuz its me, but because its the truth. you've told me and your OWN FRIENDS have told me! dont let me slip between your fingers cuz its not me that'll lose anything. and im not saying you will also, but realize what you've got! realize that its hard to find people like me...a straight foward, outfront, caring person who knows how to put up a challenge without losing! i know what ive got and thats something i dont tend to lose now! someone smart, outgoing, truthful. you've got a good head on your shoulders honey! heres your advice...USE IT! im not talking shit nor do i intend to! see this as a legible reality check! ive given it to you so much verbally! and you say that you've listened to it...and you've somewhat shown me! you dont seem to certain about certain things! if you find this, im sorry you had to read it! but after the story they've told me today...you need to know whats going on! lol, nothing as big as i wanted to tell you about your past! but for you to know what goes on BEHIND YOUR BACK sweetheart! i laugh at its face knowing everything is bullshit! and you can believe it to...but first you need to know how certain "close" people can be!