thoughts
do i write only when i am upset? words seem to flow much better then... we4ird... i always thought myself as a happy person. but of recent, i do not think so anymore. i mean at work, it has been getting me down. i am getting more and more tired. phyisically, i mean. I am trying so hard but i seem to be stuck. i have my fun times, i had my laughs... but there is always the fear behind the laugh... the fear that the reaction you get is not of true intentions but will be used against you in the future. i seem to be rambling on but it just all makes sense in my head.
in other areas... i have having a great time. it is just amazing. never would i have thought that this could happen to me. but it is and i treasure every minute of it.
OH! and my room is almost complete. still a few boxes of loose ends to be sorted away but that's about it. so lazy to just sort them out.
I feel that although i love my room now, i prefer to stay out when my mum is home. during the period when i was sick, and i had to stay home that few days. it drove me crazy that she would be constantly nagging at me. i know that she is bored at home and has no one to talk to but she is getting very negative and always pin-pointing faults. and that only makes me wanna get out of the house more. i love my mum but the nagging is driving me insane.
and i caught s cold.. must be the air con last night. was so exhausted at work. had to come home in the afternoon to sleep. but then i did only sleep for about 3 hours... but wat wonderful 3 hours that was. wish that it could be everyday.
but for now... i am happy with what i can get.
in other areas... i have having a great time. it is just amazing. never would i have thought that this could happen to me. but it is and i treasure every minute of it.
OH! and my room is almost complete. still a few boxes of loose ends to be sorted away but that's about it. so lazy to just sort them out.
I feel that although i love my room now, i prefer to stay out when my mum is home. during the period when i was sick, and i had to stay home that few days. it drove me crazy that she would be constantly nagging at me. i know that she is bored at home and has no one to talk to but she is getting very negative and always pin-pointing faults. and that only makes me wanna get out of the house more. i love my mum but the nagging is driving me insane.
and i caught s cold.. must be the air con last night. was so exhausted at work. had to come home in the afternoon to sleep. but then i did only sleep for about 3 hours... but wat wonderful 3 hours that was. wish that it could be everyday.
but for now... i am happy with what i can get.