aftermath day 2

[rainbeetle]

I think i have been holding it in for too long...

just now, the floodgates opened...

i bet people will be talking now, to see me tear...

a guy crying in front of so many people...

i try so hard to be strong but i am not...

i am weak...

my trust to be betrayed...

i was utterly disappointed...

i could not hold it in anymore...

i could feel the betrayal, the hurt, the lies all rise to the surface...

i could not hold it anymore and the tears came...

i tried to keep it in at first...

but as i spoke, i could not hold it in anymore...

it flowed slowly then it just flowed...

i could taste the saltiness of it as it trickled pass my lips...

how can something so sad feel so good too?

i felt it all...

it felt good to finally cry...

even if i have to endure the stares...

it felt good to just let go...

so long, i have kept it in...

i guess i could not anymore...

i am only human...

i can only be so strong...

i have been told to look into my other areas in life and be happy...

but i cant do that...

i lost what i believed could be real and pure...

i lost what i believed can make me happy...

i lost what i believed in...

i lost...