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i'm getting sick of the same old routine. i can't wait for summer when almost everything is spontaneousand cool like that. i want to play outside and lay at the pool and play softball with my ACES. BVN softball girls really need to get a drive, cause we suck right now. it seems like noone even wants to be there. the dumbass coach doesnt motivate us whatsoever, but still, we need to start trying harder. it is a waste of time for everyone out there. i feel like i am getting worse and worse as the season progresses too. well, maybe not that bad, but i have never given up this many runs on the aces as i have on the mustangs. i dont know what it is. maybe its cause im not used to playing with these people, maybe its cause my dad isnt in the dugout to help me, maybe im not concentrating enough, or maybe i just alltogether suck ass. i came into this season with so much confidence, but then after that horrid first game, i felt like i sucked. and it hasnt gotten much better. argh. anyways, back to how i want summer to be here. these past 2 weeks havent been the best. school has been blegh, softball has been blegh, and even the weekends havent been fabulous. i need a change. i'm in a really weird mood right now too. everything is annoying me and i dont feel like associating with people. i dont feel like doing anything.lksmdvlkmsdv. weird. ok im gonna go. why do i feel like thissssss