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I can't tell if I'm sad or if I am disappointed. somehow I know it's not both, or maybe it is. Jovencio is gone already, Matt is leaving tomorrow, Becky is leaving on Thursday, and I just found out that Michelle is leaving tomorrow also (no rafting down Sandy river like last summer :( ). I suppose I was looking forward to having fun together. But I've thought about it, and it's not just that. Afterall, I'm going to be here for ~ two weeks-- it's not like I'm going to get bored out of my mind. I think that as we get older, we put up more defenses, we put up more faces, and it just gets harder to be close to people. But with old friends, there's a connection that is already there. And I know that I don't even know some of you guys particularly well, but did you know? I love you all.
I've been struggling a lot trying to figure out what it means to be a functional human being, and how much shit is okay to take from people. And I'm not sure if I'm having these thoughts that I have because I'm around people in Georgetown with east coast lifestyles, or if this is just a part of growing up. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to be around in Portland that much this summer... [insert nostalgic memories of previous summer, outdoor excursions, taking classes at PSU, and working at Pizza Schmizza]
and Jeff is going to choose Home Depot over me, and never hang out with me. jerk
me sad.
I've been struggling a lot trying to figure out what it means to be a functional human being, and how much shit is okay to take from people. And I'm not sure if I'm having these thoughts that I have because I'm around people in Georgetown with east coast lifestyles, or if this is just a part of growing up. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to be around in Portland that much this summer... [insert nostalgic memories of previous summer, outdoor excursions, taking classes at PSU, and working at Pizza Schmizza]
and Jeff is going to choose Home Depot over me, and never hang out with me. jerk
me sad.