Why Mel hates her life right now
I really don't know. Nothing is making me happy. I just sit and let things happen, and I don't know what I can do to make everything better. I want to go back to school, but that will cut my hours at work. But if I don't go to school I'll be a loser and I don't want to be a loser.
Also, I want a guy. I don't care who he is . . . well I care, but I just want him, whoever the hell he is, to be nice. Why the fuck to do I feel this need? Hell if I know. I don't want to have to be alone all the time, although, sometimes being alone is nice. But right now is not one of those times.
I'm sick and tired of living in this tiny space, and for once I want to have enough space to throw my clothes around and have my cds all over the floor (not that I would do that). But no. And if I get a guy, there is no way in hell I'm having him come over. Fuck no.
Shit. I hate that my mom didn't call me on my brithday. I hate that I had to call her. I hate that I don't even want to see her for thanksgiving. And then I hate myself for even thinking it. I hate that Jessica is going to be alone for thanksgiving because of me. I hate that I'm getting sick.
And now I hate that I have to go to work right now.
Also, I want a guy. I don't care who he is . . . well I care, but I just want him, whoever the hell he is, to be nice. Why the fuck to do I feel this need? Hell if I know. I don't want to have to be alone all the time, although, sometimes being alone is nice. But right now is not one of those times.
I'm sick and tired of living in this tiny space, and for once I want to have enough space to throw my clothes around and have my cds all over the floor (not that I would do that). But no. And if I get a guy, there is no way in hell I'm having him come over. Fuck no.
Shit. I hate that my mom didn't call me on my brithday. I hate that I had to call her. I hate that I don't even want to see her for thanksgiving. And then I hate myself for even thinking it. I hate that Jessica is going to be alone for thanksgiving because of me. I hate that I'm getting sick.
And now I hate that I have to go to work right now.