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Had one of my "spells". I'm not sure what they are, actually. I feel all faint, the lights and sounds go out, I get dizzy all within a matter of seconds and then I have a headache for about 30 minutes. No idea what they are. I have had an MRI as well as CT scans - nothing seen other than my brain. I think it is part of my depression, to be honest. I had a lot of these back in WV while living alone. Once on meds for the depression, they subsided dramatically. I've had two so far this year. This is not good. So of course, this will send my anxiety up, which will cause my depression to go even further down the crapper and blah blah blah. Blah.
Speaking of depression, every year we have to do this mandatory education stuff at work. Basically it is a review of stuff we already know but is good to see it once in a while as a refresher. I clicked on one today about the suicide prevention protocol. All the warning signs, causes, etc. sound like my life. If you see a patient experiencing similar shit to Rain Oubliette, get that person drunk/restrained/doped up immediately. (Kidding.)
Well, most of you know some of my family drive me crazy. The most frequently mentioned is my Idiot Cousin, RSV. Guess what! She up and moved to WI (from WV). WTF? Some guy is out there and he is her "BFF". God, I hope so. I hate for this to blow up in her face. Yeah, it was kind of stupid to move all that way for some guy who looks like things-- er, guys back in WV. But it is better to regret what you did than what you didn't in cases such as this. I worry about her kids, though. Especially the youngest, as that kid has a lot of problems that aren't being addressed. I wish I could do more but the kid keeps me at arms length and doesn't want to hear that she's not well. Years of BS her mother told her has clouded her decision making. PSV swears that mental illness isn't real and that it's just a state of mind you can control without any help from medications, doctors, etc. It's a chemical imbalance. Meds fix that. Then you train your brain how to function again with the help of doctors. There is a lot of stuff that PSV does/did that I don't condone (the mental illness crap is a big one) but I hope that this dude in WI makes her happy. And vice versa. Life's too short not to try. (Shut up about my own screwed up life. I know it's screwed up. Thank you very much.)
I have another Idiot Cousin, well, a lot actually but we'll ignore the Tea Baggers for the time being. (I will say that, this is what happens when you don't get an education - Tea Baggers.) This one is on my paternal side. SKP is her. The crap she posts on FaceBook is just... wow. She posts shit that she isn't interested in drama or creating an uproar yet she then goes back and posts dirt about this ex of hers. The one that gets me is when she posts crap like "you mean nothing to me". Dude. If you have to TELL them they mean nothing to you, you're lying through your teeth, because you cared enough to tell them. STFU.
Going to go soak my head. It hurts and needs to be washed.
Speaking of depression, every year we have to do this mandatory education stuff at work. Basically it is a review of stuff we already know but is good to see it once in a while as a refresher. I clicked on one today about the suicide prevention protocol. All the warning signs, causes, etc. sound like my life. If you see a patient experiencing similar shit to Rain Oubliette, get that person drunk/restrained/doped up immediately. (Kidding.)
Well, most of you know some of my family drive me crazy. The most frequently mentioned is my Idiot Cousin, RSV. Guess what! She up and moved to WI (from WV). WTF? Some guy is out there and he is her "BFF". God, I hope so. I hate for this to blow up in her face. Yeah, it was kind of stupid to move all that way for some guy who looks like things-- er, guys back in WV. But it is better to regret what you did than what you didn't in cases such as this. I worry about her kids, though. Especially the youngest, as that kid has a lot of problems that aren't being addressed. I wish I could do more but the kid keeps me at arms length and doesn't want to hear that she's not well. Years of BS her mother told her has clouded her decision making. PSV swears that mental illness isn't real and that it's just a state of mind you can control without any help from medications, doctors, etc. It's a chemical imbalance. Meds fix that. Then you train your brain how to function again with the help of doctors. There is a lot of stuff that PSV does/did that I don't condone (the mental illness crap is a big one) but I hope that this dude in WI makes her happy. And vice versa. Life's too short not to try. (Shut up about my own screwed up life. I know it's screwed up. Thank you very much.)
I have another Idiot Cousin, well, a lot actually but we'll ignore the Tea Baggers for the time being. (I will say that, this is what happens when you don't get an education - Tea Baggers.) This one is on my paternal side. SKP is her. The crap she posts on FaceBook is just... wow. She posts shit that she isn't interested in drama or creating an uproar yet she then goes back and posts dirt about this ex of hers. The one that gets me is when she posts crap like "you mean nothing to me". Dude. If you have to TELL them they mean nothing to you, you're lying through your teeth, because you cared enough to tell them. STFU.
Going to go soak my head. It hurts and needs to be washed.