my absence
Dear LJ, you old friend of mine.
Yes I hav been gone for a while. Often times I think abt you and how great it was in the good ole days ill blog to you abt everything. And oh I'd write them with such enthusiasm. Oh how I looked forward to gossip my daily findings and post picturrs etc etc.
I think after a while, even the best of relationships go stale and we go in search of a better partner. I believe this to be the case with you and I.
You have been loyal and trust worthy, but you are a thing of the past.
Quite honestly, my life has hit rock bottom, or well, I feel like its getting there. And when that happens, I don't feel particularly inspired or motivated. It used to be therapeutic but now I see that it just makes me seem pathetically depressing.
But who knows, perhaps one day we'll regain that steady relationship we once had. It could be tmrw, next week, next month or year. As for now, I'm having too much fun with my fling with Tumblr.
No worries though, I'm not at all done with you just yet.
I'm just sad bcuz there's no change in my life. And even if there was, these changes can only keep me happy for the briefest of moments. Sigh. I'm being dramatically melancholic again.
On top of it all, I'm most disappointed in myself. The lack of change. I try so hard to get over my bad habits and lazy nature, but oh how they continue to plague me. I'm so sick and tired of my own insecurities and ungratefullness to all the marvelous things I hav in life. There are so so many other ways in which I could be worse off, yet I can't seem to see them. Why can't I see how lucky I am to be well and alive. I'm not in any financial crisis, I'm not ill, I have great friends and people who care for me, I have most things other people on the other side of the world could only dream of. I guess it all stems from the well of unhappiness and discontentment. My optimism is constantly doused by an onslaught of unhappy events one after another.
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Yes I hav been gone for a while. Often times I think abt you and how great it was in the good ole days ill blog to you abt everything. And oh I'd write them with such enthusiasm. Oh how I looked forward to gossip my daily findings and post picturrs etc etc.
I think after a while, even the best of relationships go stale and we go in search of a better partner. I believe this to be the case with you and I.
You have been loyal and trust worthy, but you are a thing of the past.
Quite honestly, my life has hit rock bottom, or well, I feel like its getting there. And when that happens, I don't feel particularly inspired or motivated. It used to be therapeutic but now I see that it just makes me seem pathetically depressing.
But who knows, perhaps one day we'll regain that steady relationship we once had. It could be tmrw, next week, next month or year. As for now, I'm having too much fun with my fling with Tumblr.
No worries though, I'm not at all done with you just yet.
I'm just sad bcuz there's no change in my life. And even if there was, these changes can only keep me happy for the briefest of moments. Sigh. I'm being dramatically melancholic again.
On top of it all, I'm most disappointed in myself. The lack of change. I try so hard to get over my bad habits and lazy nature, but oh how they continue to plague me. I'm so sick and tired of my own insecurities and ungratefullness to all the marvelous things I hav in life. There are so so many other ways in which I could be worse off, yet I can't seem to see them. Why can't I see how lucky I am to be well and alive. I'm not in any financial crisis, I'm not ill, I have great friends and people who care for me, I have most things other people on the other side of the world could only dream of. I guess it all stems from the well of unhappiness and discontentment. My optimism is constantly doused by an onslaught of unhappy events one after another.
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