on responsibilities and fetishes
*big heaving sigh*
i still cant find my ring. i even looked through the garbage bins... 2nd day.. and still no sign.
i keep telling myself. "its okay. it'd show up"
but the thing is .. what if it doesnt? then wat?
oh im just the most responsible person in the world. I barely had that ring for half a year?
i'm so used to it on my finger.. now it feels so naked.
i got one of those wishing frog plushies from france. maybe if i wished really reallly hard, it'd magically appear.
oh yea right. if only
i havnt been acting like myself lately. this whole weeks been so confusing. my days seemed to be glued together into one large.... day. going to sleep at 10am and waking up at 9pm. i'm truely living the nocturnal life.
i'm losing control over my emotions and feelings. my mind and heart's run off thinking they can just go ahead and do things without my consent.
thats wat happens when you like someone more than you really should. You get carried away with thoughts. it's so predictable... like an idiot moth being drawn to the warmth and comfy fuzzyness that is the light coming from the death trap. before you know it... BZZZZZTTT.
reality check here please?
i have been down this road before. why havnt i learned my lesson? why must i constantly strive to want something that i cant have.
its aright. i've got these two days of work. It'd be enough to sort myself out. Get my heads out of the clouds.
i still cant find my ring. i even looked through the garbage bins... 2nd day.. and still no sign.
i keep telling myself. "its okay. it'd show up"
but the thing is .. what if it doesnt? then wat?
oh im just the most responsible person in the world. I barely had that ring for half a year?
i'm so used to it on my finger.. now it feels so naked.
i got one of those wishing frog plushies from france. maybe if i wished really reallly hard, it'd magically appear.
oh yea right. if only
i havnt been acting like myself lately. this whole weeks been so confusing. my days seemed to be glued together into one large.... day. going to sleep at 10am and waking up at 9pm. i'm truely living the nocturnal life.
i'm losing control over my emotions and feelings. my mind and heart's run off thinking they can just go ahead and do things without my consent.
thats wat happens when you like someone more than you really should. You get carried away with thoughts. it's so predictable... like an idiot moth being drawn to the warmth and comfy fuzzyness that is the light coming from the death trap. before you know it... BZZZZZTTT.
reality check here please?
i have been down this road before. why havnt i learned my lesson? why must i constantly strive to want something that i cant have.
its aright. i've got these two days of work. It'd be enough to sort myself out. Get my heads out of the clouds.