procrastination
its almost 1am and i am nowhere done cleaning/packing/organizing/tidying up.
i'm so tired. probably also because i have so much on my mind.
i feel so down... so helpless. That i cannot be there to make him feel better.. and i don't know what to do. i'm sorry i've never been in the situations he's in.. that i "can never understand"... i don't think he knows how sorry i am for things to be this way.
EDIT:
2am.... i want nothing more than to just curl up in my bed... with the lights off, music playing inthe background and drift off into peaceful sleep...
but thats not going to happen. because:
1. got too much crap to do.. and if i sleep now... i wont wake up till 11am... and i have to leave for the airport at 2pm
2. got too much crap on my mind..... "restful" sleep is not something i'd be able to acheive.
3. got too much crap in my room.... i can barely walk around it.. let alone find my way across to my bed.. which also.. is piled on with crap
i'm so tired. probably also because i have so much on my mind.
i feel so down... so helpless. That i cannot be there to make him feel better.. and i don't know what to do. i'm sorry i've never been in the situations he's in.. that i "can never understand"... i don't think he knows how sorry i am for things to be this way.
EDIT:
2am.... i want nothing more than to just curl up in my bed... with the lights off, music playing inthe background and drift off into peaceful sleep...
but thats not going to happen. because:
1. got too much crap to do.. and if i sleep now... i wont wake up till 11am... and i have to leave for the airport at 2pm
2. got too much crap on my mind..... "restful" sleep is not something i'd be able to acheive.
3. got too much crap in my room.... i can barely walk around it.. let alone find my way across to my bed.. which also.. is piled on with crap