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people are always passing one another by.
not a word drawing out of their fridgid lips.
back and forth. side by side.
we could lock arms and talk but what are we really talking about.
little things that have no meaning. of things that happened. so that we may feel that person connect to us.
im sitting here with a damn book connecting. animated objects that say nothing to me.
smiling. welcoming this absence of words when everyone sees me only talking.
what about whats not said when i speak!?
the fact that i curl up in my bed at night thinking about that damn boy in the back,. cooking and smiling at me... and as he smiles i only remmeber him kissing me and talking to me about everything.
the fact that i have so many freinds but they aren't freindly enough too accept my flaws.
as if my flaw was aids... or some disease that shouldn't scare anyone.
i laugh now because i know you all. i see you all day to day walking around the world.. in your chaotic selfishness. thinking yet not at alll. for the thrill of life when anaylsing it gives it meaning somtimes.
im laughing because you think i say to much when i say to little. when you hold still and quiet when i hold nothing and scream it out.
are you now better than me...or am i now free and more independant than you?
not a word drawing out of their fridgid lips.
back and forth. side by side.
we could lock arms and talk but what are we really talking about.
little things that have no meaning. of things that happened. so that we may feel that person connect to us.
im sitting here with a damn book connecting. animated objects that say nothing to me.
smiling. welcoming this absence of words when everyone sees me only talking.
what about whats not said when i speak!?
the fact that i curl up in my bed at night thinking about that damn boy in the back,. cooking and smiling at me... and as he smiles i only remmeber him kissing me and talking to me about everything.
the fact that i have so many freinds but they aren't freindly enough too accept my flaws.
as if my flaw was aids... or some disease that shouldn't scare anyone.
i laugh now because i know you all. i see you all day to day walking around the world.. in your chaotic selfishness. thinking yet not at alll. for the thrill of life when anaylsing it gives it meaning somtimes.
im laughing because you think i say to much when i say to little. when you hold still and quiet when i hold nothing and scream it out.
are you now better than me...or am i now free and more independant than you?