Due dates
I know it sounds ridiculous.
But for four subjects with mid-year assessments, I only asked for extra time for one! I just completed one of my end of year assignments by the due date. Yes, I've got extra time for the others, but that is on time for half the assessments this semester. Not sure I'd managed even one or two in the previous three years, so this is a big deal for me.
Today I just need to decide between alprazolam and in person submission; or the post office and hope.
After about 18 months off meds, I do have a prescription again. I feel so much better about it, though. I asked for it, wasn't pushed to. After seeing a social worker at the local youth centre. Paul asked what we talked about, and I laughed, because I mostly just sat and cried. Not a lot of talking happening there. He was able to understand that my trying to ask for special consideration for the group work was actually my way of explaining that I needed a hand, rather than actually wanting SC for the assignments. Hooray. He was also able to suggest thinking about medication again in a non threatening way. The appointments at the youth centre came about from going to the local student clinic, where they try for a holistic care model. You go, and are allocated two students from different disciplines. I wanted to see a physio about my post-Easter back, and was given a GP too. They get your medical, history before you see the students. So they asked how the depression was going. It freaked them out a bit, I forget that people who aren't used to mental illness find it disturbing. The GP was going to look in to counselling options for me, and J was going to try the RMIT system. Which took two weeks for an appointment. So I called the youth centre instead, and the hold up there was that we were always leaving messages for one another. Got an appointment in three business days,
Basically, this time the system worked for me, and it was amazing.
Also, the meds are effective. No surprise with benzos. I think these are more psychologically addicting than they are physically, though. Who doesn't like to function and feel okay.
Socialised the last three evenings, too. It is good to see people again, it has been far too many years since I was regularly social.
Last night I wrote a list of the things I would like to be doing. Funny how 80% of them don't involve a computer, and yet that is where I spend 80% of my spare time.
But for four subjects with mid-year assessments, I only asked for extra time for one! I just completed one of my end of year assignments by the due date. Yes, I've got extra time for the others, but that is on time for half the assessments this semester. Not sure I'd managed even one or two in the previous three years, so this is a big deal for me.
Today I just need to decide between alprazolam and in person submission; or the post office and hope.
After about 18 months off meds, I do have a prescription again. I feel so much better about it, though. I asked for it, wasn't pushed to. After seeing a social worker at the local youth centre. Paul asked what we talked about, and I laughed, because I mostly just sat and cried. Not a lot of talking happening there. He was able to understand that my trying to ask for special consideration for the group work was actually my way of explaining that I needed a hand, rather than actually wanting SC for the assignments. Hooray. He was also able to suggest thinking about medication again in a non threatening way. The appointments at the youth centre came about from going to the local student clinic, where they try for a holistic care model. You go, and are allocated two students from different disciplines. I wanted to see a physio about my post-Easter back, and was given a GP too. They get your medical, history before you see the students. So they asked how the depression was going. It freaked them out a bit, I forget that people who aren't used to mental illness find it disturbing. The GP was going to look in to counselling options for me, and J was going to try the RMIT system. Which took two weeks for an appointment. So I called the youth centre instead, and the hold up there was that we were always leaving messages for one another. Got an appointment in three business days,
Basically, this time the system worked for me, and it was amazing.
Also, the meds are effective. No surprise with benzos. I think these are more psychologically addicting than they are physically, though. Who doesn't like to function and feel okay.
Socialised the last three evenings, too. It is good to see people again, it has been far too many years since I was regularly social.
Last night I wrote a list of the things I would like to be doing. Funny how 80% of them don't involve a computer, and yet that is where I spend 80% of my spare time.