Still Lonely...
Its three o'clock in the morning and I pretend to be engrossed in my book. The main character just over came one of the main plots of the book and it is headed into the last climax before ending in suspense making me have to have the third book in triogly. In the background, I hear music from Caity's room and chit chat between her and Tima. I can also hear Mikey Halo in the livingroom while talking to his buddies over the headset. You ask what is my mind?? me being so lonely. I am depressed that their is no body next to me. I am almost to the point of tears and I wonder if this night is like most others, and I will have to cry myself to sleep. I am so lonely. I am in need of human companionship. I need someone that I care about to be right next to me holding me knowing that they care about me too. Why do I get like this. Why do I need someone? Many years of my life I was able to survive by myself but lately it is not possible. It hurts me deep down. Every man that has come into my life has not measured up to Lou and I reject them. Yet I know deep dowm that he is a scum. Why do I need him so bad? Why do I still want him so badly? Why do I need to look in a pair of eyes and know what they are silently saying to me?