complete confusion
Why do people hide their true emotions? Why can't people just come out and say 'I do not like this person' or 'I do not want to do this anymore'? True, it would suck if everyone decided to grow a backbone when facing their elder of some sort (teacher, parent, official, etc.) when that elder had done nothing to harm the one complaining. But what about when it does harm them? Or when it means absolutely nothing to them?
School cliques; A girl will leave for a few months, a girl who was quite popular while there, but the moment she is gone; there are nasty rumors flying around. Her best friend? She is glad that that girl is gone. When said girl returns, she hears nothing of the rumors and is suddenly loved again.
True, again. It would be very painful if the whole school were to suddenly gang up on this girl and emotionally damage her. But if they have no problem speaking behind her back, what do they have against speaking to her face.
When it comes to bribery: A girl who was most hated in my elementary brought in cookies one day. Every person who had made fun of her or assaulted her were her best friends in moments...for one school day. It royally pissed me off that people could be so easily coerced from their beliefs. Cookies? Come on!
A third girl, is one I have grown up with. She loved to be nicknamed, 'Angel' which my friends and I found funny for reasons I will not say. Years later, I hardly know her. All I know is what I'm told. A bitch in our school told our lunch table her opinion of me, very loudly. That third girl, who was friends with said Bitch, did nothing. I think that is when I realized that this wasn't my friend anymore. Looking back, she may have never been my friend. She was always quick to accuse me. She is popular, no longer with us, I am guessing because we'd rather not be placed with assholes like she seems to enjoy. But she remains kind to us, but I do hear terrible things about her as well. I have heard that she may have been raped at a party she had gone to in a nearby town. The harsh part was that my friend made it sound like her fault...the worse part was that I thought the same thing too. As terrible as that should make me feel, I think about it.
When you hear that a stranger is raped. Do you originally first sympathize with the victim, or do you wonder about the rapist? Is that rapist still out there? How close to our home was this crime? I believe that I feel like nothing more than a stranger to this new person that was once my friend. So maybe, I just don't feel anything right.
What were we talking about? Oh right...true emotions...
As embarresed as it made me feel, I had commented a man on his entry to realize that it was not exactly...HIS entry. The entry made perfect sense to me, though. 'Do not feel sympathy for me because I know you feel nothing for me at all' summarizes it. I thought that it was quite truthful and that is the story that started this one. Why do people hide their true emotions? It cannot be because everyone is shy or would rather keep their opinions to themsleves. I know too many people who would rather die their hair a shit color before they don't say what they want to say, but yet, they as well remain quietly opinionated when it comes to people that are of high stature, but are of...well, low opinion. It makes sense, but it is completely stupid!
Now that I am done, I would like to point out that, yes, I do know that this entry is completely pointless. Please do live with it.