Approved....
What a complicated thing the human mind is.
Even though Laura is right it doesn't change the feel of guilt. I look behind me to a cage where one time three furry friends ran around.
Now only one pair of sad eyes stare back at me.
If it was his time to go it sure didn't feel like it. It felt more like a slap in the face because of my neglect.
I just have to accept that there was nothing I could.
He was peaceful right before he was put into his cardboard coffin.
In fact he was chill all the way up to the end.
That's the Sora I remember. That's the Sora I want to remember.
The strong dominant leader. The adventurous know-it-all with a Pepsi addiction.
They told me he had some common ferret cancer. That he pretty much lived to a long life. He was nothing when Laura found him. His body was so frail and holding him you can feel each individual bone. He wouldn't eat or drink at the last moment. So I panicked and washed him off. Laura found us an emergency pet ER and we drove him out there.
Do you know how hard it is to have everyone's opinion to be him down. I know it was the best solution. But it felt so wrong. I can't explain how much it hurt. I started to go crazy inside.
"I'd be cheaper."
"But he might make it through."
"One less hassle."
"The money doesn't matter."
"I can't kill him."
"I have to let him go."
I miss him. One of the only positive thoughts is that he's with Monk now. The two brothers finally re-united. I keep picturing them bickering about me as they run around in their beautiful after-life. I'm not super religious but I need this. I need to believe at least for now.
I'm glad I at least got to say goodbye. I held him in the examine room one last time as he looked around trying to explore everything as if nothing was wrong with him.
...
All I had to do was sign a few papers and then the dotted-line of the reciept. The words APPROVED stuck in my head as they were bold on the reciept and my signature was right underneath. The details of the reciept mentioned something such as "Services for Sora*" and I never figured out what the stupid asterisks meant.
Yeah...
Have a good weekend,
-Victor
Even though Laura is right it doesn't change the feel of guilt. I look behind me to a cage where one time three furry friends ran around.
Now only one pair of sad eyes stare back at me.
If it was his time to go it sure didn't feel like it. It felt more like a slap in the face because of my neglect.
I just have to accept that there was nothing I could.
He was peaceful right before he was put into his cardboard coffin.
In fact he was chill all the way up to the end.
That's the Sora I remember. That's the Sora I want to remember.
The strong dominant leader. The adventurous know-it-all with a Pepsi addiction.
They told me he had some common ferret cancer. That he pretty much lived to a long life. He was nothing when Laura found him. His body was so frail and holding him you can feel each individual bone. He wouldn't eat or drink at the last moment. So I panicked and washed him off. Laura found us an emergency pet ER and we drove him out there.
Do you know how hard it is to have everyone's opinion to be him down. I know it was the best solution. But it felt so wrong. I can't explain how much it hurt. I started to go crazy inside.
"I'd be cheaper."
"But he might make it through."
"One less hassle."
"The money doesn't matter."
"I can't kill him."
"I have to let him go."
I miss him. One of the only positive thoughts is that he's with Monk now. The two brothers finally re-united. I keep picturing them bickering about me as they run around in their beautiful after-life. I'm not super religious but I need this. I need to believe at least for now.
I'm glad I at least got to say goodbye. I held him in the examine room one last time as he looked around trying to explore everything as if nothing was wrong with him.
...
All I had to do was sign a few papers and then the dotted-line of the reciept. The words APPROVED stuck in my head as they were bold on the reciept and my signature was right underneath. The details of the reciept mentioned something such as "Services for Sora*" and I never figured out what the stupid asterisks meant.
Yeah...
Have a good weekend,
-Victor