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[raikirah]

I don't care anymore. I realized this. I know now, I'm not worth anything. Why should I be unhappy with life, when I'm meaningless myself? I'm just going to not care. I'm indifferent. I'm tired of being the only one that talks to me in a day. I'm tired of not meeting people's standards. I'm going to start the new job, and just pretend that work is the only thing I need in life.

I'm never going to get anything I need, anyway..considering how little anyone else needs me.

I'm back to how I was three years ago.

I should have just never started trying. It'd hurt less.