All the things we say
Saw a sundog yesterday.Another thing I forgot to mention previously: The "GOORP" in the potatoes my brother and I made is short for "garlic, olive oil, rosemary, and parmesan".
Sweetheart made stuffed flatbread with such. It's wonderful. Of course, the original dish was drool-worthy as well.Good progress on writing down projects and then knocking them out, although there's still a level of stress. Despite this being one of the best years in my life, I still feel like I'm struggling sometimes.
As a sidenote: I am not depressed; at worst, I have a case of "small blues" or occasional dysphoria. I have made a commitment never to stop living unless making a specific sacrifice (protecting someone else) or I consume all the media. Yes, I realize that latter goal is unattainable, but I really don't have a problem with that. ;9 To that end, if I'm ever found in an "apparent suicide", please find the people who did it.
... that went darker than I expected. Just to say, my expectation of "it all falls over" and/or giving up on a personal level at worst has me being that chatty homeless guy who always hangs out in the library. Society falling is a different beast, but then ye probably won't know whether I'm still around or not. I do expect to, of course.
Dag, twice dark now. Go towards the light! Like I said, good progress, got to dance again for the first in a long time, starting to talk more about time planning with partner, I'm back to an A cup, all over lots of evidence of the phrase "slow and steady".
Edited to add: I had an unusual gap in my budget, and all my buckets were going negative. I have since figured out that with no cohabitors paying rent in September and October, and a thousand-dollar expenditure in November, it's been explained. Not great, not terrible. As stands now I'm back to a state where I can give the buckets an allowance every month, and be where I project financially in 2 years.
And more example of the "struggle" feeling mentioned above: I'm well aware of how "safe" I am financially, especially in comparison to some of my friends, and what a privilege it is that I am able to put money away and have all my needs covered and spend it on other stuff. And at the same time, there is stress (mostly positive) with managing it. It's like... I'm done hauling water for the day, and now I'm playing a tricky video game; nothing urgent, but it's still getting my heart rate up.I don't expect to be on here over the next two weeks, which means I'll be getting back to the whole "New Year's" thing late.
I wish everyone peace and prosperity. Even if we don't deserve it. Especially if you don't think you deserve it. I want everyone to be happy and healthy and sexy. More impossible game states, I know, but I want everyone to win.
Ask us for help. I really mean it.
"Be well, do good work, and keep in touch." - Garrison Keillor
Have fun showing 2014 the door, have a good 2015, and I'll see you then.
Sweetheart made stuffed flatbread with such. It's wonderful. Of course, the original dish was drool-worthy as well.Good progress on writing down projects and then knocking them out, although there's still a level of stress. Despite this being one of the best years in my life, I still feel like I'm struggling sometimes.
As a sidenote: I am not depressed; at worst, I have a case of "small blues" or occasional dysphoria. I have made a commitment never to stop living unless making a specific sacrifice (protecting someone else) or I consume all the media. Yes, I realize that latter goal is unattainable, but I really don't have a problem with that. ;9 To that end, if I'm ever found in an "apparent suicide", please find the people who did it.
... that went darker than I expected. Just to say, my expectation of "it all falls over" and/or giving up on a personal level at worst has me being that chatty homeless guy who always hangs out in the library. Society falling is a different beast, but then ye probably won't know whether I'm still around or not. I do expect to, of course.
Dag, twice dark now. Go towards the light! Like I said, good progress, got to dance again for the first in a long time, starting to talk more about time planning with partner, I'm back to an A cup, all over lots of evidence of the phrase "slow and steady".
Edited to add: I had an unusual gap in my budget, and all my buckets were going negative. I have since figured out that with no cohabitors paying rent in September and October, and a thousand-dollar expenditure in November, it's been explained. Not great, not terrible. As stands now I'm back to a state where I can give the buckets an allowance every month, and be where I project financially in 2 years.
And more example of the "struggle" feeling mentioned above: I'm well aware of how "safe" I am financially, especially in comparison to some of my friends, and what a privilege it is that I am able to put money away and have all my needs covered and spend it on other stuff. And at the same time, there is stress (mostly positive) with managing it. It's like... I'm done hauling water for the day, and now I'm playing a tricky video game; nothing urgent, but it's still getting my heart rate up.I don't expect to be on here over the next two weeks, which means I'll be getting back to the whole "New Year's" thing late.
I wish everyone peace and prosperity. Even if we don't deserve it. Especially if you don't think you deserve it. I want everyone to be happy and healthy and sexy. More impossible game states, I know, but I want everyone to win.
Ask us for help. I really mean it.
"Be well, do good work, and keep in touch." - Garrison Keillor
Have fun showing 2014 the door, have a good 2015, and I'll see you then.