Open up these graves, let these bodies talk
I told myself I would go to bed at a proper hour tonight, but lo and behold, it is 3:19 and here I am.
Last few days have been an unproductive blur - staying up too late, sleeping too late, and not having the energy to work on things that need to be worked on. I will have to get myself in gear tomorrow at least, because as AN draws nearer, I am going to have to be helping others with their costumes, so I should have made significant progress on mine.
But I am afraid of the fly and the waistband.
I've wanted to write, I know I have. But I just realized I'm going to have to re-write some parts of FMM, and possibly even plan out what the hell is happening. Things are moving much too fast, I think. But I also have to consider whether or not that is really true. I don't know. Help me?
In any case, I started a short story I've been thinking of tonight. I'm glad for a change of scenery from my novel. I will finish it. Tomorrow will be productive, one way or another.
Fairly large antisocial streak going on right now. Always apearring offline on MSN. Oddly though, I've joined OKCupid and sent out some messages (fairly unheard of for me). Don't even know what I'm looking for, but at least it might be possible for me to make friends. If I don't get tired of making friends. Haven't been to Acebook in ages, makes me wonder why I am so intensely antisocial right now. Maybe I am not cut out for human relationships.
I've finally moved my music from the downstairs computer up here onto my own. It's all old stuff, ever since grade 9 (and possibly even earlier). Brings up a lot of old feelings, memories. So many romantic songs that make me yearn desperatly for somebody. But I think that is part of my problem - I talk to someone, listen to romantic songs and automatically envision "them". But I probably don't like them. I don't know. My feelings fluctuate, things aren't always what they seem.
Might get to see one of my exes in person for the first time. I'm excited and nervous. Probably at the end of february, though nothing is really planned yet. Did I mention this before? Too lazy to go and check.
I will be productive tomorrow. I will be productive tomorrow. I will...
Last few days have been an unproductive blur - staying up too late, sleeping too late, and not having the energy to work on things that need to be worked on. I will have to get myself in gear tomorrow at least, because as AN draws nearer, I am going to have to be helping others with their costumes, so I should have made significant progress on mine.
But I am afraid of the fly and the waistband.
I've wanted to write, I know I have. But I just realized I'm going to have to re-write some parts of FMM, and possibly even plan out what the hell is happening. Things are moving much too fast, I think. But I also have to consider whether or not that is really true. I don't know. Help me?
In any case, I started a short story I've been thinking of tonight. I'm glad for a change of scenery from my novel. I will finish it. Tomorrow will be productive, one way or another.
Fairly large antisocial streak going on right now. Always apearring offline on MSN. Oddly though, I've joined OKCupid and sent out some messages (fairly unheard of for me). Don't even know what I'm looking for, but at least it might be possible for me to make friends. If I don't get tired of making friends. Haven't been to Acebook in ages, makes me wonder why I am so intensely antisocial right now. Maybe I am not cut out for human relationships.
I've finally moved my music from the downstairs computer up here onto my own. It's all old stuff, ever since grade 9 (and possibly even earlier). Brings up a lot of old feelings, memories. So many romantic songs that make me yearn desperatly for somebody. But I think that is part of my problem - I talk to someone, listen to romantic songs and automatically envision "them". But I probably don't like them. I don't know. My feelings fluctuate, things aren't always what they seem.
Might get to see one of my exes in person for the first time. I'm excited and nervous. Probably at the end of february, though nothing is really planned yet. Did I mention this before? Too lazy to go and check.
I will be productive tomorrow. I will be productive tomorrow. I will...