Character babble
Ok, so I'm undertaking the not-so-easy task of rewriting, in its entirety, For My Melanie.
I think I've disillusioned myself enough to accept that my favourite character isn't the "main one", but rather, the secondary main character. At first I thought this was a bad thing, but now I don't mind so much. It will help readers see both sides of the stories and make their own opinions on the two mains.
Anyway, this character who I adore is Jeice. He's the leader of the slave's rebellion. Originally he was supposed to be 18 but I'm considering making him 16 instead. If you want to know everything about him, listen to the song Audrey, Start The Revolution by Anberlin.
I feel so bonded to him, even though he started out as a secondary character. But even know in my strange emotional state, I can feel the pull of his emotions when I'm writing him, I can almost become him and that is something very key to me when I write (and also why it has been hard for me to write as of late).
Jeice is so devoted and loyal but to two separate things. He's torn. He absolutely loves his wife, he practically worships her. But at the same time he's caught up trying to be a man, to be strong. Its hard for him to show as much affection to her as I know he really wants to.
Then, there's his cause. Freeing his people. The rebellion. I guess this kind of fits in with his attempts to prove himself as a man, but only partially. Most of it is genuine concern for the other Markers. So much is riding on the war, he honestly wants Leah to be able to live in a world where she is not a slave. And to do this he has to leave her behind, and go and fight. When really he wants nothing more than to be with her. In addition to this, he won't sleep with her until the slaves are freed, since he would never want their children to live that kind of life.
Except I really feel I'm not getting it across talking about it like this! I'm just so so glad I'm able to convey this torn feeling while writing him in the actual story.
If you want to read the first version, its on my deviantart account.
http://rai-starstreak.deviantart.com/art/For-My-Melanie-Chapter-One-18392314
But the second version is turning out to be a lot better! I won't be posting it until it is 100% finished, though. And even then, I'm unsure if I should post it, or start going through revisions and attempt to get it published...any thoughts? If anyone actually reads this.
I think I've disillusioned myself enough to accept that my favourite character isn't the "main one", but rather, the secondary main character. At first I thought this was a bad thing, but now I don't mind so much. It will help readers see both sides of the stories and make their own opinions on the two mains.
Anyway, this character who I adore is Jeice. He's the leader of the slave's rebellion. Originally he was supposed to be 18 but I'm considering making him 16 instead. If you want to know everything about him, listen to the song Audrey, Start The Revolution by Anberlin.
I feel so bonded to him, even though he started out as a secondary character. But even know in my strange emotional state, I can feel the pull of his emotions when I'm writing him, I can almost become him and that is something very key to me when I write (and also why it has been hard for me to write as of late).
Jeice is so devoted and loyal but to two separate things. He's torn. He absolutely loves his wife, he practically worships her. But at the same time he's caught up trying to be a man, to be strong. Its hard for him to show as much affection to her as I know he really wants to.
Then, there's his cause. Freeing his people. The rebellion. I guess this kind of fits in with his attempts to prove himself as a man, but only partially. Most of it is genuine concern for the other Markers. So much is riding on the war, he honestly wants Leah to be able to live in a world where she is not a slave. And to do this he has to leave her behind, and go and fight. When really he wants nothing more than to be with her. In addition to this, he won't sleep with her until the slaves are freed, since he would never want their children to live that kind of life.
Except I really feel I'm not getting it across talking about it like this! I'm just so so glad I'm able to convey this torn feeling while writing him in the actual story.
If you want to read the first version, its on my deviantart account.
http://rai-starstreak.deviantart.com/art/For-My-Melanie-Chapter-One-18392314
But the second version is turning out to be a lot better! I won't be posting it until it is 100% finished, though. And even then, I'm unsure if I should post it, or start going through revisions and attempt to get it published...any thoughts? If anyone actually reads this.