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Sometimes I wish I was a good writer. Or good with words, bc there's so much to say about the past couple hours that I can't even describe. It started wonderfully, then I was in dismay and shocked, almost cried through a conversation realizing the meaning of 'to err human, to forgive divine' and how some people really don't deserve to be forgiven... I can't even say here what I want to say. Words will never do justice... I'm just so sorry...
But the worst of it is, I know what I was thinking and why I was thinking it, and I wish I was a better person to be above the reasons behind it...
In surveys there's always the question, who's your best friend (girl)-(alie & bridget) then who's your best friend (guy)- and my answer has always been uhh... like I have a lot of guy friends, but none that could stand out in my mind as number one. But tonight, if I took another one, it would definately have to be Andrew. He is seriously just someone that is so amazing to talk to and insightful to listen to. I don't even know if he knows how amazing he is to me. In Acadia, I teased him for being my new brother, since mine was away. But after I stepped back and looked at it, the way I act w/ him, the things I can talk about with him, are things that had been unique to my brother alone. There were ways that I had thought he was like Brian when I first met him, like his behaviour and mind set...
But there's a person, who you can think of when you're confused, the one who comes to mind who'll get it...
tonight has been a rough night... =/
But the worst of it is, I know what I was thinking and why I was thinking it, and I wish I was a better person to be above the reasons behind it...
In surveys there's always the question, who's your best friend (girl)-(alie & bridget) then who's your best friend (guy)- and my answer has always been uhh... like I have a lot of guy friends, but none that could stand out in my mind as number one. But tonight, if I took another one, it would definately have to be Andrew. He is seriously just someone that is so amazing to talk to and insightful to listen to. I don't even know if he knows how amazing he is to me. In Acadia, I teased him for being my new brother, since mine was away. But after I stepped back and looked at it, the way I act w/ him, the things I can talk about with him, are things that had been unique to my brother alone. There were ways that I had thought he was like Brian when I first met him, like his behaviour and mind set...
But there's a person, who you can think of when you're confused, the one who comes to mind who'll get it...
tonight has been a rough night... =/