something may be wrong... mindless ranting
I'm not sure i'm alright , you see. My mom gave our dog away cause we did not dedicate the time chispie needed. And ying her up so she would not run about carelessly was also cruel in our way of viewing a doggie life. She was with u s for 4 years and suddenly i'm remembered why i have attachement issues. I feel like a part of me is missing. Cracks once repair of my shattered soul have yet again been reopened . And as to put more uneasynees and caos in my mind , I've been sick, things going wako with my body and all test seem to show I am the picture of health. Sometimes i question my own aches and pain and whether i really am coughing from a bad cold or is it just my imagination. It's not that i am upset i am healthy but rather that it makes me look like a hypocondriac. That i've gotten to a point that no matter how sick i feel i have to question my ownself if im lying to myself and everyone. ANd the fact that the only being i had the confidence to curl up with when i feel like this is gone yet i feel what can be discribed as blahness. i conclude that something is wrong within myself and decide to go to bed , for tomorrow is yet another day for me to be told nothing is wrong though i bleed for 13 days and have those days of the month up to 3 times a month. I guess soon i will be sent to a looney ville as to be with pears