smattering
lalalala
today i slept in...
and watched "a fish called wanda" with lauren.
and felt guilty. heh. probably been a bit too serious lately if i can't relax and enjoy a movie. not that i can't try...so tommorrow miss lauren and i shall take a stroll down to the village to find funny cards for my teachers
(and especially my writing 50 professor, Dr. Retseck, because she gave us plastic dinosaurs as congratulations for getting through the class. she is so very cool. she currently holds a doctorate in victorian literature, but has decided that she wants to be an oncologist; she appiled and got into the graduate school right here in claremont. so she'll continue to teach her excellent classes at scripps while learning how to save the world. she lives with a cat and is teaching a fantasy literature class next semester: i think she is my personal hero. this girl named laura and i were the only ones who consistently understood her jokes; it was nice to have a teacher as nerdy as myself. my dinosaur is a bright orange raptor.)
and then hit up the yummy bagel place.
and then study. studying always goes better with lauren around because we tend to need breaks at the same time and can find stuff to make each other giggle in the interim. lauren is the kind of person i can share everyday inane stuff with as well as complain with, discuss with, rant to, etc. maybe a visit to houston would be possible this summer...
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tried an iced vanilla latte today. still do not like coffee.
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i really like computer science. why do i keep hearing from people that i don't seem like a cs major? when asked what i then seem like, there is never an answer. not sure if this is good or bad thing.
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soon i won't be a teenager anymore. i've been so used to being in enviroments where girls are encouraged to learn and break out of traditional roles, that it seemed odd to see an article discussing the career vs. family decisions of scripps alumnae. it seems like the kind of thing half the community at scripps would get mad about if you even asked them, and that the other half would enthusiastically have an exact solution for. i simply have no idea. i still feel very young, very unformed.
hearing about people my age getting married or getting pregnant ought to make it more real to me, but i don't think it ever really will be. is the career vs. family thing still a bigger deal for women? or is it big for men as well? when will i finally get hit by the "real world"?
will it change what i want from life? what is that, exactly? it's so weird to think about my parents having made decisions like this, because they've had the role for my entire life. in that respect, i'd much rather have things planned than not, but how exactly does a plan like this come about? i think scripps has inspired an extreme deconstructive tendency in me that limits my ability to trust either any feeling or any thought i have about things.
grr, this is so hard to figure out. maybe it is just the scripps environment, but it seems like there is so much pressure on women to not want the traditional thing, to deconstruct things like taking your husband's name to the point where it seems like you are a weak woman if you want to. do any of you other chicks out there feel the same way? i always try to keep in mind balance, balance of school and friends, balance of head and heart; maybe this place is just too darn liberal for me. i am not a party girl or a drinker, and so this getting older thing does not welcome the kind of fun that most seem to find solace in. it just kind of sucks right now. what am i supposed to think? do i suppress how i feel about tradition and etc.? how does anyone make any decisions about this kind of stuff? only when they have to, i suppose, so i'm glad that hasn't happened to me yet.
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anyway, it has been easy to decide what classes to take and next semester:
cs 60: kind of an overview of many subjects
cs 70: c++ and algorithms
span 126: chicana lit
span 148: he said she said: new narratives in spanish literature (or something)
even though i'm going to be here for five years, i want to take mostly classes in my major and minor. because i'm tired of english, suck at philosophy, cannot stand biology, and am mediocre at everything else. college has gotten me used to mediocrity. oh, and i let my friends talk me into:
p.e. 04: introductory latin dance
hahaha!
i only know how to lead in a waltz, and will likely never get to be the one to follow as the class will be predominantly female. and i'm tall, so of course i'm the guy of the couple. and i'm tall, so i'm ungainly. and my feet are big so i will step on those of my partner. nonono. it will be lots of fun, i'll see.
dancing. bah. it is nice to be a little dressy, though, and to have the possibility of dancing with a boy. additionally, who knows what future event might transpire in which a rudimentary knowledge of latin dance would come in handy.
at any rate, i'm stuck. all my three best friends here have puppy eyes, big time. hehe. yes, you're probably reading this nikki, and you're the worst. you have the eyebrow _and_ the lip. you also must teach me to scam as you do, some day when i am ready.
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i will be most useless tomorrow if i do not get some sleep. it has been nice to type about things; not as embarassing as it used to be. lovely!
it will also be easy to decide what to read tomorrow instead of studying. i believe the new mercedes lackey book i found will do just swimmingly. ooh, maybe i'll read by the pool. or in the pool! or maybe i should read that book...or maybe this one.... oh darn it, they're all so pretty. what is a girl to do? maybe i will ask my historically-accurate neon dinosaur.
today i slept in...
and watched "a fish called wanda" with lauren.
and felt guilty. heh. probably been a bit too serious lately if i can't relax and enjoy a movie. not that i can't try...so tommorrow miss lauren and i shall take a stroll down to the village to find funny cards for my teachers
(and especially my writing 50 professor, Dr. Retseck, because she gave us plastic dinosaurs as congratulations for getting through the class. she is so very cool. she currently holds a doctorate in victorian literature, but has decided that she wants to be an oncologist; she appiled and got into the graduate school right here in claremont. so she'll continue to teach her excellent classes at scripps while learning how to save the world. she lives with a cat and is teaching a fantasy literature class next semester: i think she is my personal hero. this girl named laura and i were the only ones who consistently understood her jokes; it was nice to have a teacher as nerdy as myself. my dinosaur is a bright orange raptor.)
and then hit up the yummy bagel place.
and then study. studying always goes better with lauren around because we tend to need breaks at the same time and can find stuff to make each other giggle in the interim. lauren is the kind of person i can share everyday inane stuff with as well as complain with, discuss with, rant to, etc. maybe a visit to houston would be possible this summer...
~~~~~~~~
tried an iced vanilla latte today. still do not like coffee.
~~~~~~~~
i really like computer science. why do i keep hearing from people that i don't seem like a cs major? when asked what i then seem like, there is never an answer. not sure if this is good or bad thing.
~~~~~~~~
soon i won't be a teenager anymore. i've been so used to being in enviroments where girls are encouraged to learn and break out of traditional roles, that it seemed odd to see an article discussing the career vs. family decisions of scripps alumnae. it seems like the kind of thing half the community at scripps would get mad about if you even asked them, and that the other half would enthusiastically have an exact solution for. i simply have no idea. i still feel very young, very unformed.
hearing about people my age getting married or getting pregnant ought to make it more real to me, but i don't think it ever really will be. is the career vs. family thing still a bigger deal for women? or is it big for men as well? when will i finally get hit by the "real world"?
will it change what i want from life? what is that, exactly? it's so weird to think about my parents having made decisions like this, because they've had the role for my entire life. in that respect, i'd much rather have things planned than not, but how exactly does a plan like this come about? i think scripps has inspired an extreme deconstructive tendency in me that limits my ability to trust either any feeling or any thought i have about things.
grr, this is so hard to figure out. maybe it is just the scripps environment, but it seems like there is so much pressure on women to not want the traditional thing, to deconstruct things like taking your husband's name to the point where it seems like you are a weak woman if you want to. do any of you other chicks out there feel the same way? i always try to keep in mind balance, balance of school and friends, balance of head and heart; maybe this place is just too darn liberal for me. i am not a party girl or a drinker, and so this getting older thing does not welcome the kind of fun that most seem to find solace in. it just kind of sucks right now. what am i supposed to think? do i suppress how i feel about tradition and etc.? how does anyone make any decisions about this kind of stuff? only when they have to, i suppose, so i'm glad that hasn't happened to me yet.
~~~~~~~
anyway, it has been easy to decide what classes to take and next semester:
cs 60: kind of an overview of many subjects
cs 70: c++ and algorithms
span 126: chicana lit
span 148: he said she said: new narratives in spanish literature (or something)
even though i'm going to be here for five years, i want to take mostly classes in my major and minor. because i'm tired of english, suck at philosophy, cannot stand biology, and am mediocre at everything else. college has gotten me used to mediocrity. oh, and i let my friends talk me into:
p.e. 04: introductory latin dance
hahaha!
i only know how to lead in a waltz, and will likely never get to be the one to follow as the class will be predominantly female. and i'm tall, so of course i'm the guy of the couple. and i'm tall, so i'm ungainly. and my feet are big so i will step on those of my partner. nonono. it will be lots of fun, i'll see.
dancing. bah. it is nice to be a little dressy, though, and to have the possibility of dancing with a boy. additionally, who knows what future event might transpire in which a rudimentary knowledge of latin dance would come in handy.
at any rate, i'm stuck. all my three best friends here have puppy eyes, big time. hehe. yes, you're probably reading this nikki, and you're the worst. you have the eyebrow _and_ the lip. you also must teach me to scam as you do, some day when i am ready.
~~~~~~~~
i will be most useless tomorrow if i do not get some sleep. it has been nice to type about things; not as embarassing as it used to be. lovely!
it will also be easy to decide what to read tomorrow instead of studying. i believe the new mercedes lackey book i found will do just swimmingly. ooh, maybe i'll read by the pool. or in the pool! or maybe i should read that book...or maybe this one.... oh darn it, they're all so pretty. what is a girl to do? maybe i will ask my historically-accurate neon dinosaur.