When I looked down the barrel of that 9, all I could see were my Mama's eyes...
been a little while since my last post. I've been busy planning my life for the next couple years. I was originally planning to go to college a year early, but i concluded that wasnt the best course of action. I've made my decision to return to high school and prevent myself from any further alienation. I really do value my friends and if keep living the way i'm living, i'll just keep on spiraling into this depression that has no cure. homeschooling was a bad decision, a really bad decision, and now that I can finally admit that, it shows that i'm ready to come back home, back to the place where i feel i belong. i gotta bust my ass this and next year in order to make up for all the slacking off i've done and all the useless suffering i've undergone. it's time for a change and I realize now that college can wait and that i'm gonna finish high school with my friends because honestly, i cant picture myself anywhere else but with them. this year has been a learning experience and a valuable one at that. i realize that giving myself this freedom has only made me gain weight, get lazier and lose contact with my friends. no matter how miserable i was at penn charter, im ten times that sitting on my ass getting homeschooled. everything about me aside, i realize that i havent posted about last weekend. i'll do that now. friday, i was gonna do somethin with yoni, possibly go into the city with brad, josh, slavic and christian, but then yoni never called me back. he told me later that he and brad got into a huge fight and that nobody really did anything that nite. so, i just went over to baldy's around 9 and met his family from maryland, including his rather cute, lindsey lohan-looking cousin. we played halo 2, which aint bad for a console game, and ate some apple pie with VANILLA ICE CREAM. in short, not a total loss of a nite. saturday was huge improvement, as it was big steve's bday extravaganza at the blue bell inn.
"wanna share the chateaubriand?"
"sure, im quite the wine connoisseur"
"it's a steak"
"actually i know nothing about wine"
"that belt is huge, it could like, fit around my entire body"
"that's usually what belts do, conston"
we went to bed around 6 in the morning, got about 4 hours of sleep and had to rush home since i was singing the messiah with my choir. i managed to fall asleep while i was singing and baldy called me in the middle of the tenor solo, so the entire audience heard "beach" accompanying "the trumpet shall sound". it was a lovely harmony. baldy wanted to know if i would come to the movies with him, liz, samfretz and toni. hellz yeah bitch. we saw sideways, which definitely made me genuinely laugh for the first time in a while. it gets my vote for best comedy of the year and hopefull it will at least get some recognition at the oscars. afterwards, we all said our tearful goodbyes, i made mine very dramatic as i ran beside sam while she was driving out of the parking lot. she thinks im a psycho, ill bet. i drove liz and baldy home, they got it on in my backseat AGAIN and all was good in aaron world. i was jsut watching the last samurai, man that movie still gives me goosebumps.
"wanna share the chateaubriand?"
"sure, im quite the wine connoisseur"
"it's a steak"
"actually i know nothing about wine"
"that belt is huge, it could like, fit around my entire body"
"that's usually what belts do, conston"
we went to bed around 6 in the morning, got about 4 hours of sleep and had to rush home since i was singing the messiah with my choir. i managed to fall asleep while i was singing and baldy called me in the middle of the tenor solo, so the entire audience heard "beach" accompanying "the trumpet shall sound". it was a lovely harmony. baldy wanted to know if i would come to the movies with him, liz, samfretz and toni. hellz yeah bitch. we saw sideways, which definitely made me genuinely laugh for the first time in a while. it gets my vote for best comedy of the year and hopefull it will at least get some recognition at the oscars. afterwards, we all said our tearful goodbyes, i made mine very dramatic as i ran beside sam while she was driving out of the parking lot. she thinks im a psycho, ill bet. i drove liz and baldy home, they got it on in my backseat AGAIN and all was good in aaron world. i was jsut watching the last samurai, man that movie still gives me goosebumps.