I'm an idiot...
I need to apologize to all my friends for my behavior. I'm human and I've made mistakes. I should never put my friends through anything like I have. I'm ashamed. I do realize I have the best friends a guy could have. Thank you for being there for me. As for the situation that got me so distraught, I can only hope that she'll eventually forgive me. Me being self destructive does nothing and makes me look like more of an ass. Now I need to focus on my job and AX. When the time comes to see her at AX I'll have to deal with it. Again, thanks to everyone for caring. I hope I never go through this again.