Happy Litha, watch for faeries!
So I went to a Midsummer ritual tonight (technically last night but I haven't gone to bed yet so bollocks to that) with Michelle, Erika and Kimmie. It was great. There was the basic ritual of casting the circle and calling the corners then there was a guided meditation with a simple feast to follow. I don't feel like going into details because...I just don't.
I had a really good time...I really enjoyed myself...It's nice to finally connect with other people who have the same interests as me in terms of paganism and such. But now...as I think about how the night went...I feel really sad...mostly because of the way I was treated by other people and how I let myself feel because of that. I won't name names or any such thing...but some people just treated me like crap it seemed. I can't even think of specific examples...just general emotions. I felt so criticized and insulted a few times by a few people...they just...put me down I guess. Thinking back on it makes me so sad but at the time I think I just felt crushed...I was having a great time and then to have this negative energy....it ruins things for me.
On top of it all...my mom is snoring. I hate snoring so bad.
Other things I'm also hating right now:
When I press "Backspace" and the web browser moves back a page instead of deleting the last letter.
When I for some unknown reason can no longer type in my journal.
AUGH...that snoring makes me want to vomit. Excuse me while I fill my ears with cotton.
Also there is another Midsummer ritual this Saturday, probably a bit bigger...definitely a lot nuder. I'm exited. But I'm thinking I'll skip the nudity.
I had a really good time...I really enjoyed myself...It's nice to finally connect with other people who have the same interests as me in terms of paganism and such. But now...as I think about how the night went...I feel really sad...mostly because of the way I was treated by other people and how I let myself feel because of that. I won't name names or any such thing...but some people just treated me like crap it seemed. I can't even think of specific examples...just general emotions. I felt so criticized and insulted a few times by a few people...they just...put me down I guess. Thinking back on it makes me so sad but at the time I think I just felt crushed...I was having a great time and then to have this negative energy....it ruins things for me.
On top of it all...my mom is snoring. I hate snoring so bad.
Other things I'm also hating right now:
When I press "Backspace" and the web browser moves back a page instead of deleting the last letter.
When I for some unknown reason can no longer type in my journal.
AUGH...that snoring makes me want to vomit. Excuse me while I fill my ears with cotton.
Also there is another Midsummer ritual this Saturday, probably a bit bigger...definitely a lot nuder. I'm exited. But I'm thinking I'll skip the nudity.