savor the pain
all of the lights are out
in my house
everyone's asleep but me
its dark
and i can't see
its silent
then theres clumsyass me who falls down the stairs and wakes everyone up
hmmm.
my tummy hurts now.
today i went to go see 'paycheck' with brett, rico and andrea.
the movie was actually prettttty good.
but afterwards we went back to andrea's and played cards like we usually do and rico was pissing me off so much that i ended up walking home.
[its cool cos andrea lives 10 mins from me]
the thing about the relationship that i have with rico, is that we're just like siblings.
although we love each other, we're constantly squabling and winding each other up.
we bitch at each other and make fun of each other even though deep down we have so much respect for each other.
i like our friendship
but today he just pissed me off so much that i ended up just going home.
but it ended up being ok because chris lee called asking if i wanted to chill with him, evan and darren [who are all mighty cool people]
so i chilled with them for......hmmmmmm........less than an hour
doing what....hmmmmmm..........driving around....
yes, driving around.
we dorve to andrea's, she wasn't there
we went to chris k's but didn;t even stay.
but just their company was awesome so it was a lot of fun
i feel like my parents are constanly getting on my back for the stupidest most pathetic reasons.
mabey its me, i dont know, i guess i dont care enough to think about it
so now i've completely changed the rules of the house.
i have told them that i shall have 'no time when i need to be home'
because i was rather irratated by the fact that they wanted me home tonight by 11:30.
they're still pissed at me and nick because we apparently embarrassed mum infront of all of her friends when we went to go see the fucking nutcracker.
the thing that makes me and nick so different from the sons and daughters of mum's friends is that we truly do not give a toss.
we've gotten so used to mum nagging us an dad yelling at us that we are no longer affraid to go against the will of out parents.
we purely feed off their anger and frustration because it ammuses us.
for the past 12 years they have been constanly complaing about the things we do and telling us to do this and that, and it is not until the last 3 years that we have actually started to stand up for ourselves.
before, we would always keep our mouth shut...never complain or answer back.
just get on with our lives even though we were being frustrated and tormented with the way we were leading it.
our parents wanted us to be something we're not.
surely they couldn't expect us to act upper-class in england when they sent us to the most dodgy school in the area...but they did.
surely they couldn't expect us to be independent and mature when they would always shelter us from the world...but they did.
so the last year we lived in england...we began to rebel.
not by doing drugs or staying out all night.
but just purely by speaking our minds and not being affraid of the consequences of our actions.
its paid of now because our parents have a lot more respect for us now and realise that we can live in this big world because we wont let anyone hurt us or push us around.
wow......so many memories of our early childhood.
roah! like danesfield. our elementry school. man, is only i could go back there. i'd say a thing or 2 to all of my old teacher. complete and utter witchs they were.
treated us like shit.
arghfffmrgimbpeamvg...........i want to go on about that but it only gets me frustrated.
i can;t believe that i let them push me aorund.
get me into thinking that i was worthless.
nrwrembwpebpwermbryepbm.....................i'd just love to speak my mind to them now and not feel ashamed or frightened of them.
people like them live off fear,
don't act affraid and they have nothing to thrive off.
they're just insecure cowards.
in my house
everyone's asleep but me
its dark
and i can't see
its silent
then theres clumsyass me who falls down the stairs and wakes everyone up
hmmm.
my tummy hurts now.
today i went to go see 'paycheck' with brett, rico and andrea.
the movie was actually prettttty good.
but afterwards we went back to andrea's and played cards like we usually do and rico was pissing me off so much that i ended up walking home.
[its cool cos andrea lives 10 mins from me]
the thing about the relationship that i have with rico, is that we're just like siblings.
although we love each other, we're constantly squabling and winding each other up.
we bitch at each other and make fun of each other even though deep down we have so much respect for each other.
i like our friendship
but today he just pissed me off so much that i ended up just going home.
but it ended up being ok because chris lee called asking if i wanted to chill with him, evan and darren [who are all mighty cool people]
so i chilled with them for......hmmmmmm........less than an hour
doing what....hmmmmmm..........driving around....
yes, driving around.
we dorve to andrea's, she wasn't there
we went to chris k's but didn;t even stay.
but just their company was awesome so it was a lot of fun
i feel like my parents are constanly getting on my back for the stupidest most pathetic reasons.
mabey its me, i dont know, i guess i dont care enough to think about it
so now i've completely changed the rules of the house.
i have told them that i shall have 'no time when i need to be home'
because i was rather irratated by the fact that they wanted me home tonight by 11:30.
they're still pissed at me and nick because we apparently embarrassed mum infront of all of her friends when we went to go see the fucking nutcracker.
the thing that makes me and nick so different from the sons and daughters of mum's friends is that we truly do not give a toss.
we've gotten so used to mum nagging us an dad yelling at us that we are no longer affraid to go against the will of out parents.
we purely feed off their anger and frustration because it ammuses us.
for the past 12 years they have been constanly complaing about the things we do and telling us to do this and that, and it is not until the last 3 years that we have actually started to stand up for ourselves.
before, we would always keep our mouth shut...never complain or answer back.
just get on with our lives even though we were being frustrated and tormented with the way we were leading it.
our parents wanted us to be something we're not.
surely they couldn't expect us to act upper-class in england when they sent us to the most dodgy school in the area...but they did.
surely they couldn't expect us to be independent and mature when they would always shelter us from the world...but they did.
so the last year we lived in england...we began to rebel.
not by doing drugs or staying out all night.
but just purely by speaking our minds and not being affraid of the consequences of our actions.
its paid of now because our parents have a lot more respect for us now and realise that we can live in this big world because we wont let anyone hurt us or push us around.
wow......so many memories of our early childhood.
roah! like danesfield. our elementry school. man, is only i could go back there. i'd say a thing or 2 to all of my old teacher. complete and utter witchs they were.
treated us like shit.
arghfffmrgimbpeamvg...........i want to go on about that but it only gets me frustrated.
i can;t believe that i let them push me aorund.
get me into thinking that i was worthless.
nrwrembwpebpwermbryepbm.....................i'd just love to speak my mind to them now and not feel ashamed or frightened of them.
people like them live off fear,
don't act affraid and they have nothing to thrive off.
they're just insecure cowards.