GrrrNess...

[ragedemotions]

So everything is completely messed up. Friday I was so stupid that I drank without having any food in my stomach and got really, really sick. I didn't even drink that much. So I got caught along with everyone else who was involved because I had to be carried into Mel's house. We wouldn't have been caught if it wasn't for me and I feel really, really bad about everything =*( I can't believe I could be so stupid. Relationship issues are definitely no stranger to me lately. When we are together everything seems so perfect and how it used to be. When we are away from each other it seems he doesn't care. I know he probably doesn't mean it and it's probably just me but I hate it. He never calls, I mean a day or two is okay, but sometimes I go four or more days without talking to him and the only reason I get to is because I call him. Even when he says he'll call, he doesn't. I don't know I'm proably just being stupid but I feel like it's a one way street. I love him dearly and I don't want this to end but... I don't know, don't listen to me. Maybe I set myself up for this one and I promised myself I wouldn't, I couldn't, not after Chris Flynn but I got distracted. Oh well...

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE HIM =*(