May 12, 2009 14:58
Ok so the gay thing is out lol. I'm just so confused right now, I think I know what I want in a guy and then I don't. Bottum line is I don't need to be with anyone right now. I really need to be by myself... this is the longest I've been single in... 4 years... and I need to stay that way. But I'm so lonely and bored. I love being by myself I love living alone. But I think I like having a "relationship" type thing b/c it keeps me entertained. I don't want to be a codependent person, I want to be able to do things by myself, well being broke doesn't help...
So the plenty of fish thing is good the entertainment but the guys on there are suck douche bags that I don't want to ever bother even looking at them. It's like why bother talking to them...
I don't know... why can't the perfect guy exist? And adore me? Who cares it'll never happen.