days counted...

[ragdolls_heart]

i can very unsafe-ly say that i am on the verge of emotional collapse, i hate feeling this way... i didnt want to break up and i hope he knows that if he were to call and ask me out or even imply going back out, i wouldnt hesitate... and thats probably the closeest to the truth i can get... but, there is some one that has been in front of me the entire time, and im just now realizing how great of a person he is... no names please... laure knows and thats about that... piffle... i guess ill see where the road takes me... or in this case, which hall i turn down, and which door i open. with every open door, there is another closed.... peace.

i just read some of my past entries which helped shed some light on why im feeling the way i am about ben... its just that. he makes me feel like me. confident, loved, just fucking happy... i dont want to loose him... i never wanted to, not since our first kiss.. now i want to cry... damn me and my emo self... peace love and anti war for the last time tonight people.