lay lady lay.
I have been pretty happy latley. Which feels wierd saying. I need to work on myself. I need to talk, and not coward in the corner. and draw better. i like a boy alot. thats all i will say. i found a amazing song. the lyrics are so understanding. I am listening to it now. I have been a bit happier at school, a better and a bit more talkative mood. Zach called and my mom left me a message with his number. Im guessing that means i should call. But i hate phone calls, cuase its like your being forced to talka nd when ther is a akward silence you just want to shoot yourself. I saw a rainbow today. I miss Ashley so much i think i am going through withdrawls. I need her so i can tell her everything and then she can make fun of me, and play in pe with me, and let me borrow her chap stick, and throw rocks at pumpkins with mexican names that we forget. and finding rocks and insisting mine is better, and me being able to talk and have fun. OH MY GOD I MISS ASHELY SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
disintigrate.
church and state.
and yeah i did some things. but i wont talk about it.