Finals, Moving, and Love
Yeah, that time is upon us again...finals....*moan and groan*...I do feel somewhat ready, but you are never as ready as you think you are...until after the exams come back and you realize, "I WAS fucking ready!" "GO ME!!!"
I've got five exams, and when Friday gets here, there will be one celebratory girl, i'll promise you that! I've got nothing but a bunch of computer classes next semester, and I am looking forward to that....I like the challenge, I do! BRING IT ON I SAY!!
Yom Kippur is Thursday...I have to work, but no exams....YAY! The dinner at the temple will be a welcome relief indeed....Fasting's not cool...not at all.
Moving is coming along...need to get with Johnboy about his bed....I want it, and I am willing to talk a serious price with him, and since I know he is kinda hurting for the scratch, yeah...*willing to negotiate*...I am wanting to have a bed big enough for me and the kitties and maybe the doggies and possibly Clay *wink*.....and I sure don't think my queen bed will do the trick lol....I have like a bit of furniture I am going to need help with, especially the dresser and kitchen table and chairs and the refrigerator and things...I have a lot of stuff, I realized, and I needs help with it...I also have a dryer I need to get there as well, and NO I am not going to lift that damned thing! I remembered the torture I went through to get it into the basement when one of my exes and I broke up...and I'll be dammed if I go through giving birth like THAT again! NO WAY!
Now, for the most important part of the post...love....
I love Clay. I so do. He is exactly everything I need, and the exact opposite of what I am used to...It's weird, being in a healthy, nurturing, stable relationship with someone that is quite expressive in their love for me...and it feels really nice...he calls when he says he will, lets me know how important I am to him, and strives daily to assure me that I am indeed the most important thing to him next to breathing....we've been talking about life after I graduate, and I think it's going to be one where he'll move here as opposed to me moving there...I love the south, but I cannot live there...been there, done that, and got a t-shirt. He wants me to know that I improve him on a daily basis, and I beg to differ. It is he that makes me a better woman.
I know I have faults...I am at times selfish, condesending, impatient, agressive, and impulsive. I also have a tendency to cut off people at a drop of a hat, and I am unabashedly blunt and have no conscience when it comes to hurting someone I feel wronged me in order to feel equal again. I know that these things can make even the nicest of people turn sinister, but he seems to think that all these things make me into a woman he admires....he sees all of these things as stregnths that come out at the appropriate times....and I am amazed by him....I truly am. He reminds me of my dad and of my grandfather, two good men that worked hard, loved their families and wives a lot, and did what was necessary for them to be happy and taken care of....I see so much love and ambition and stregnth of character in Clay....and I am thrilled he chose me...
I loves my Big Cat.....
I love you, Clay.
I've got five exams, and when Friday gets here, there will be one celebratory girl, i'll promise you that! I've got nothing but a bunch of computer classes next semester, and I am looking forward to that....I like the challenge, I do! BRING IT ON I SAY!!
Yom Kippur is Thursday...I have to work, but no exams....YAY! The dinner at the temple will be a welcome relief indeed....Fasting's not cool...not at all.
Moving is coming along...need to get with Johnboy about his bed....I want it, and I am willing to talk a serious price with him, and since I know he is kinda hurting for the scratch, yeah...*willing to negotiate*...I am wanting to have a bed big enough for me and the kitties and maybe the doggies and possibly Clay *wink*.....and I sure don't think my queen bed will do the trick lol....I have like a bit of furniture I am going to need help with, especially the dresser and kitchen table and chairs and the refrigerator and things...I have a lot of stuff, I realized, and I needs help with it...I also have a dryer I need to get there as well, and NO I am not going to lift that damned thing! I remembered the torture I went through to get it into the basement when one of my exes and I broke up...and I'll be dammed if I go through giving birth like THAT again! NO WAY!
Now, for the most important part of the post...love....
I love Clay. I so do. He is exactly everything I need, and the exact opposite of what I am used to...It's weird, being in a healthy, nurturing, stable relationship with someone that is quite expressive in their love for me...and it feels really nice...he calls when he says he will, lets me know how important I am to him, and strives daily to assure me that I am indeed the most important thing to him next to breathing....we've been talking about life after I graduate, and I think it's going to be one where he'll move here as opposed to me moving there...I love the south, but I cannot live there...been there, done that, and got a t-shirt. He wants me to know that I improve him on a daily basis, and I beg to differ. It is he that makes me a better woman.
I know I have faults...I am at times selfish, condesending, impatient, agressive, and impulsive. I also have a tendency to cut off people at a drop of a hat, and I am unabashedly blunt and have no conscience when it comes to hurting someone I feel wronged me in order to feel equal again. I know that these things can make even the nicest of people turn sinister, but he seems to think that all these things make me into a woman he admires....he sees all of these things as stregnths that come out at the appropriate times....and I am amazed by him....I truly am. He reminds me of my dad and of my grandfather, two good men that worked hard, loved their families and wives a lot, and did what was necessary for them to be happy and taken care of....I see so much love and ambition and stregnth of character in Clay....and I am thrilled he chose me...
I loves my Big Cat.....
I love you, Clay.