I am going to start out by typing this....
This is going to be my year.
What I mean is this....I am going to make 2011 the BEST, most rewarding, and the most growth-drenched year of my 30's....I've been given a new lease on life, and I intend to go all the way with it.
I have decided to go out out this year and write...Write write, write....I've got like 50 cabillion gazillion short stories and novels and poems and one play....but the stories I've been putting out have been coming from day to day life and from memories formed and presently forming....I don't know where to place the genre of what I am writing, but I DO know this....
I WILL BE PUBLISHED THIS FREAKING YEAR!!
I am in the process of finishing up my collection of short stories and I am tidying up one of the novels I have already written....For some strange reason, I've been PRODUCING lately, and it feels pretty damn amazing...and as long as the wave is here, I will ride it out....
I have also decided to work out again...I was given the okay to do some light aerobics and I am going to do so...I've lost weight from the chemo but I look doughy and gross and sickly...I want to change all that I feel has held me back from being successful, and I am determined to make it....if I can kick cancer's ass, then I will triumph over the weight thing as well...no more room for excuses!
As far as my love life is concerned...that's being put on the back burner....I used to rush out and try and find someone to boo up with in order to not work on what I felt was lacking in me....I vowed that once I divorced Clay, I would NOT slip back into self-destructive dating and coupling patterns....that I was going to take some time out to figure out what worked for me, and what I needed to scrap...and that, my lovelies, takes TIME...and time is what I am willing to invest in order to make the next serious thing I get involved in truly worth it.
I am also getting ready to do some heavy-duty vacationing....I am going to Tennessee in March and Miami in May....and G-d willing, to Italy in October with my sister nikkinicole36 ...cos we've been talking about this for HELLAS now, and I feel it's high time for us to make this happen....I am going to be a doer and not a spectator, and in order to do this, I've got to put some ACTION behind the thought, so yeah...getting it all ready, and as this trip progresses, I WILL be doing a photo-menutary on it....
I've also deleted a few folks from the friends archives as well...sometimes people you think love you are the ones that are the most toxic to have around you,and one of the prayers I prayed on NYE was for G-d to reveal those who had me and for me to remove those that were against me....and He's doing it....some folks I am sorry to see go, but I am happy to be rid of so that the best, most creative, and caring parts of me are allowed to shine through....sometimes people can hold you to a place that was never really yours in the first place, you know? Sometimes you can be so happy one moment, and then be so down the next, and when you mull it over you realise that the person you've kept companionship with is the one that is sucking you DRY....and you have to remove that person before your essence is gone...
There are other things going on as well, but I have an early morning call, and I have to be fresh for it! I am so glad to be back, and you WILL be hearing more from me!
Take Care,
Elisabeth
What I mean is this....I am going to make 2011 the BEST, most rewarding, and the most growth-drenched year of my 30's....I've been given a new lease on life, and I intend to go all the way with it.
I have decided to go out out this year and write...Write write, write....I've got like 50 cabillion gazillion short stories and novels and poems and one play....but the stories I've been putting out have been coming from day to day life and from memories formed and presently forming....I don't know where to place the genre of what I am writing, but I DO know this....
I WILL BE PUBLISHED THIS FREAKING YEAR!!
I am in the process of finishing up my collection of short stories and I am tidying up one of the novels I have already written....For some strange reason, I've been PRODUCING lately, and it feels pretty damn amazing...and as long as the wave is here, I will ride it out....
I have also decided to work out again...I was given the okay to do some light aerobics and I am going to do so...I've lost weight from the chemo but I look doughy and gross and sickly...I want to change all that I feel has held me back from being successful, and I am determined to make it....if I can kick cancer's ass, then I will triumph over the weight thing as well...no more room for excuses!
As far as my love life is concerned...that's being put on the back burner....I used to rush out and try and find someone to boo up with in order to not work on what I felt was lacking in me....I vowed that once I divorced Clay, I would NOT slip back into self-destructive dating and coupling patterns....that I was going to take some time out to figure out what worked for me, and what I needed to scrap...and that, my lovelies, takes TIME...and time is what I am willing to invest in order to make the next serious thing I get involved in truly worth it.
I am also getting ready to do some heavy-duty vacationing....I am going to Tennessee in March and Miami in May....and G-d willing, to Italy in October with my sister nikkinicole36 ...cos we've been talking about this for HELLAS now, and I feel it's high time for us to make this happen....I am going to be a doer and not a spectator, and in order to do this, I've got to put some ACTION behind the thought, so yeah...getting it all ready, and as this trip progresses, I WILL be doing a photo-menutary on it....
I've also deleted a few folks from the friends archives as well...sometimes people you think love you are the ones that are the most toxic to have around you,and one of the prayers I prayed on NYE was for G-d to reveal those who had me and for me to remove those that were against me....and He's doing it....some folks I am sorry to see go, but I am happy to be rid of so that the best, most creative, and caring parts of me are allowed to shine through....sometimes people can hold you to a place that was never really yours in the first place, you know? Sometimes you can be so happy one moment, and then be so down the next, and when you mull it over you realise that the person you've kept companionship with is the one that is sucking you DRY....and you have to remove that person before your essence is gone...
There are other things going on as well, but I have an early morning call, and I have to be fresh for it! I am so glad to be back, and you WILL be hearing more from me!
Take Care,
Elisabeth