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I am a conformist, so I want to tell everyone that life sucks and I hate myself and I hate school and I hate testing and can't wait to graduate and can't stand such and such or so and so.... but what I really want to do it tell you abotu this girl. See I told you, I am a conformist, pretend I'm someone you actually like, they probably talk about the same things...
Anyway, this kid drives me nut! In more ways than one, saddly. She is so cool- yes I said it, pathetic I know. But she is so awful! She tears herself apart constantly, for reasons... good reasons, relativly speaking... but not good enough. I just want it all to go away.
So we have been hangin out a good bit, maybe not enough, but more than before. It has been great. It is fun. I love getting out of the house. I love putting off hw to go watch a movie and chill. I love thiking that at any moment now, everything might fall into place. It just refuses to comply.
Since when does courtisy come before living?
Since when does loyalty to a friend you don't even talk to come before a friend you talk to every day?
I am only slightly angry. It is after all, totally my fault.
I will get over it some day, just not today.
Well, the point is that I feel so weird. I haven't had a good crush in a long time.. come to think of it, I still haven't.
Why can't I just like someone that I can just like? No baggage, no red tape... only simple, adolescent emotion.
I miss being a kid, and I will never grow up.
Anyway, this kid drives me nut! In more ways than one, saddly. She is so cool- yes I said it, pathetic I know. But she is so awful! She tears herself apart constantly, for reasons... good reasons, relativly speaking... but not good enough. I just want it all to go away.
So we have been hangin out a good bit, maybe not enough, but more than before. It has been great. It is fun. I love getting out of the house. I love putting off hw to go watch a movie and chill. I love thiking that at any moment now, everything might fall into place. It just refuses to comply.
Since when does courtisy come before living?
Since when does loyalty to a friend you don't even talk to come before a friend you talk to every day?
I am only slightly angry. It is after all, totally my fault.
I will get over it some day, just not today.
Well, the point is that I feel so weird. I haven't had a good crush in a long time.. come to think of it, I still haven't.
Why can't I just like someone that I can just like? No baggage, no red tape... only simple, adolescent emotion.
I miss being a kid, and I will never grow up.