Lent: Do not pass go. Do not collect $200
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
One of the main problems I have is separating my thoughts and feelings about God from those I have about church people. In the past few years I’ve heard many preachers say that “the key to unlocking God’s blessings in your life is…” fill-in-the-blank. It could be prayer or giving or fasting or a dozen other things. The big part of me where cynicism lives asks, “Just how many locks are on God’s love anyway?” When I was younger, God’s presence was a tangible thing in my life. But that’s been gone for a long time. I’d like to say that it does not matter but that’s not true.
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Have I learned anything during this Lent? Not that I can tell. But things are always changing. That’s the life of a pilgrim; there is always something ahead on the road. I’d still like to know what God’s will is for me. I know that it’s not what I’m doing now. It’s hard to pass a test when you don’t even know the subject.
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
When I found out I had a daughter, just about 10 years ago now, my first thought was “Great, another person in my family to be disappointed in me.” God’s disapproval can be a heavy load. So this song by Simple Plan will be my last Lenten prayer.
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
One of the main problems I have is separating my thoughts and feelings about God from those I have about church people. In the past few years I’ve heard many preachers say that “the key to unlocking God’s blessings in your life is…” fill-in-the-blank. It could be prayer or giving or fasting or a dozen other things. The big part of me where cynicism lives asks, “Just how many locks are on God’s love anyway?” When I was younger, God’s presence was a tangible thing in my life. But that’s been gone for a long time. I’d like to say that it does not matter but that’s not true.
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Have I learned anything during this Lent? Not that I can tell. But things are always changing. That’s the life of a pilgrim; there is always something ahead on the road. I’d still like to know what God’s will is for me. I know that it’s not what I’m doing now. It’s hard to pass a test when you don’t even know the subject.
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
When I found out I had a daughter, just about 10 years ago now, my first thought was “Great, another person in my family to be disappointed in me.” God’s disapproval can be a heavy load. So this song by Simple Plan will be my last Lenten prayer.