Don't Judge Me, Ever
I just want to rant, an escape for a while
I don't understand why my friends find it soooo important to judge.
Whenever I said I am sleepy in the class, they look at me with those knowing eyes, and said "of course, you don't need to study, u are so clever after all, unlike us that born with common brain". I hate it when my friend said these words, or when I don't study and they tell me that I must not get a good grade, because I never study and they study so diligently, and somewhat threaten me.
They are so concerned whenever I study or not. Even my parents ignore my education, no one ever tell me what to do, what to study and whenever I have to get nine in all of my classes. No one ever do that.
All my parents ever said is that I don't have to work that hard, school is not that important.
Even if I am sleepy in the class, I do hear what the professor said. I do my homework if it is required. Why people must be so petty about this thing.
If I don't prioritize my study then It is my own business.
If they study from morning to evening, it is their own business, I don't care.
Besides, for me there are a lot of things that more important than that.
My schizophrenic sister is much more important than my study. I have to take care of her whenever I can.
I have to ease my parents who are always so sad about my sister condition.
I have to help my aunt business because my parents tell me that is the right things to do and It will teach me to humble and be grateful.
I have to work as my uncle audit because his company is in such state that the paperwork of three years is left untouched.
I never tell my friends what I am doing after class and just because of that, it don't mean that I laze around.
They have a lot of time to study unlike me who almost have no time to do that.
And sometimes I want their life, just a simple life, study, study and study...
but i figured it will be too boring for me.