Writer's Block: Youthful Transgressions
I try not to regret anything in my life because every decision made was a step on the path to where I am now, and I am happy now. ... Not to say I never had to backtrack and try a different fork in the road, but I can see how the bad times pushed me toward my current position.
The things that I think the most about, however, and believe could have changed my current life for the better are:
1- I regret being such a horribly bratty child to my mother and my stepfather. I know that early trauma started the anger and the spite, but I knew better when I was in high school and starting college and still I never broke the habits. I still find it difficult to treat them civilly because I simply have very little practice doing so.
2- I regret not spending more of my youth, with my boundless free time, outside enjoying the beauty of nature. Instead I watched enough TV for a lifetime, which is why I don't have cable now.
3- I regret not starting work and a savings account before JR year of high school. I feel that if I had worked summer jobs like my friends that I would not be so broke now.
But none of these are irreversible mistakes, I deal with being poor, I make time for the outdoors.... and this Saturday will be practice with being nice to the 'rents.
The things that I think the most about, however, and believe could have changed my current life for the better are:
1- I regret being such a horribly bratty child to my mother and my stepfather. I know that early trauma started the anger and the spite, but I knew better when I was in high school and starting college and still I never broke the habits. I still find it difficult to treat them civilly because I simply have very little practice doing so.
2- I regret not spending more of my youth, with my boundless free time, outside enjoying the beauty of nature. Instead I watched enough TV for a lifetime, which is why I don't have cable now.
3- I regret not starting work and a savings account before JR year of high school. I feel that if I had worked summer jobs like my friends that I would not be so broke now.
But none of these are irreversible mistakes, I deal with being poor, I make time for the outdoors.... and this Saturday will be practice with being nice to the 'rents.