omg it's 5.45am and i'm posting ohgodineedsleep.
i had way too much caffiene tonight. or something. now i'm up and this sucks.
i just spent the last 45 minutes looking up people and stuffs in livejournal. i've concluded several things:
- gun-toting republicans plus livejournal drama is a regrettable thing.
- no more guzzling caffineated drinks past 2am.
- ok, so that's it. i'm too strung out to think of more points.
the idea though is that i've started to seek out more old accquaintances. i've begun another season of sentiment in my mind. i've got new stuffs, new locations, new habits, new people. i've overcome many old habits, old feelings, old situations. i'm still tired, but there is another energy that comes with accepting that i'll likely always be tired. synchronous logical and gutteral belief is hard-won and seemingly worth it.
i'm still bitter, not because of the outcome, but because of the manner in which she brought it about. wisdom is very different from experience. eleven years exp is not always equal to or greater than. i'll conceed; i've been played; lesson learned. humility/fatigue states class dismissed.
pinchpenny owes me monies. go ahead and close, ass. i didn't really want that webspace and domain name anyway.
playing lots of ultima. thinking about warcraft. dispatching. she's moving a few seats down "to be closer to the radio" that's never really on. that's ok. like a bull in the proverbial china closet. i won't give myself props for being more intuitive than usual because she's painfully transparent. i knew that tone and then she listed three things. i knew what it was she would say a week ago. asking me that was like dumping me twice. do total lack of logic and subtelty indicate a lesser intelligence? kthx. stfu. the best of luck to you and the next girl you won't be able to fit into your infamous five-year plan five months from now.
keep the toiletries and sheets, bedroom things etc. remind me to remind you to give me back my letter. i am not an ice queen. but if i were, cap'n, these are the kinds of things that would make me consider.
/rant.
work tomorrow. call the kt for a pre-natal report. i'm to be a godmother. <3 sleep now.
i just spent the last 45 minutes looking up people and stuffs in livejournal. i've concluded several things:
- gun-toting republicans plus livejournal drama is a regrettable thing.
- no more guzzling caffineated drinks past 2am.
- ok, so that's it. i'm too strung out to think of more points.
the idea though is that i've started to seek out more old accquaintances. i've begun another season of sentiment in my mind. i've got new stuffs, new locations, new habits, new people. i've overcome many old habits, old feelings, old situations. i'm still tired, but there is another energy that comes with accepting that i'll likely always be tired. synchronous logical and gutteral belief is hard-won and seemingly worth it.
i'm still bitter, not because of the outcome, but because of the manner in which she brought it about. wisdom is very different from experience. eleven years exp is not always equal to or greater than. i'll conceed; i've been played; lesson learned. humility/fatigue states class dismissed.
pinchpenny owes me monies. go ahead and close, ass. i didn't really want that webspace and domain name anyway.
playing lots of ultima. thinking about warcraft. dispatching. she's moving a few seats down "to be closer to the radio" that's never really on. that's ok. like a bull in the proverbial china closet. i won't give myself props for being more intuitive than usual because she's painfully transparent. i knew that tone and then she listed three things. i knew what it was she would say a week ago. asking me that was like dumping me twice. do total lack of logic and subtelty indicate a lesser intelligence? kthx. stfu. the best of luck to you and the next girl you won't be able to fit into your infamous five-year plan five months from now.
keep the toiletries and sheets, bedroom things etc. remind me to remind you to give me back my letter. i am not an ice queen. but if i were, cap'n, these are the kinds of things that would make me consider.
/rant.
work tomorrow. call the kt for a pre-natal report. i'm to be a godmother. <3 sleep now.