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[raeraespanda]

i cant even bare to think about living in this house for one more day
let alone until june 26
let alone til i get back on my feet again
fuck

fuck
fuck
fuck

i feel like i should have never left alpena

it was my only chance to get away from this

this feeling that i've always had in my gut.

this feeling will never go away.
ever

even if it goes away for a really long time.
even to the point where i think i forget about it.

it
will
enevitably
come
back.

always and forever.

as long as i'm apart of this family.
it will always come back

this feeling of inadequecy.

because i can function.