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Today I relized that over the past few months my life has changed completly from how it was a little less than a year ago. Before I was a full time student at GVSU and majoring in medicine, had no job, and in a relationship. Now as of today I'm only taking 6 credits at Grand Rapids Community College, majoring in journalism, I will be spending more time working than anything else in the next few weeks, and I am no longer in a relationship. Being a person that has never adjusted well to change, I would expect myself to be freaking out right now; to be loosing it and be completly stressed out. Things should be seeming completly chaotic, but they dont. For the first time in at least 3 years...I feel content. Relaxed. Satisfied. It's as though everything that I have worried about and struggled with has vanished. I guess I have finally settled with the fact that I do not have complete control over my life. I have to let fate take its corse and trust that it will take me in the right direction. I have never been comfortable with that idea. I've always had to be in control...or at least think I was. Although I don't know exactly what triggered this sudden turn around, it feels so damn good to have finally let go.