Self reflection
So I sit here and I am surrounded by people. I look at these people and they dont know that there is anyone around them. Everyone is so caught up in their own little worlds. I am not saying that what is going on in my life is more important than anyone elses I just wonder if people care anymore. When did people become so self involved? When did they stop caring. I look at myself and I know what is going on with me. I know there are days that I cant see past my own nose, but I do try. When I catch myself feeling down and lonely and sorry for myself I try to reach out and touch another's life. I ask how you are doing. I want to know if there is anything that you need. Can I pray for you. Will you pray for me? Can we pray togeather? The sad thing is that no one wants to leave their space. They want to keep to themselves. They dont want to let go. Why? Why cant we help each other anymore? Why do we get so easily aggitated? Every one is trying to improve themselves. Working on self improvement. They all say that if I can do just this, or obtain this or get this into place everything else will flow. No one knows where to start. I have had the same answer for years. I say to go God. Let go and everything will fall into place. Many call me wrong, but most of those ppl havent tried it. Someone once said that most people dont look up until they are flat on their backs. I was past that. I had hit rock bottom and continued to dig for a few more yards. I had no other choice. My last one is what is starting to get me through. I think that it is funny that you never know how good things are going until everything is gone. I look around and I know that my life could be soooooo much worse and I am glad that it isnt. The thing that makes me mad is that a year ago I thougth that my life sucked. It was good. It was great compared to now. Today I dont want to whine and complain because I am scared to death of how much worse it can get. People are talking all of the time about how short life is. I look up now and I am 22 and I dont see much time ahead of me. I cant stress and I cant hurt mostly because I am to tired but also because what will it solve. If I am not here next year or next week what will me being upset have achieved. Talk about losing it all.