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how do you express extreme excitement and anticipation, but also slight hostility at the same time....its a weird position to be in, but thats how i felt at yesterdays switchfoot/sleeping at last show....the show rocked my world, dont get me wrong, but throughout the show i felt a tad bipolarness towards the whole thing...on one hand i adored the pumping adrenaline rush concerts give you, the sheer smile of being in company with folk who hold a common thread as you.....it is an amazing feeling to stand there, close your eyes, and just let the rhythm penetrate you till you feel like youre no longer on earth anymore....but on the other hand, when you go to see a band who you have called "your own" for years, it is quite weird to see so many others singing along, and yet others who havent even heard of the band....you have been a beginner fan...when their audience was little and cozy...and when all the newcomers pop up, you feel a tad disgusted, if that is the right word...this is your band, go away....that sounds harsh, but its hard to describe...on one hand you want 'your band' to be successful, but on the other hand, they are supposed to stay unknown so you can enjoy them all to yourselves....its quite a paradox if you ask me....has anyone ever had this feeling before?
....on another note, the past week or so i have learned that God has given me the best and most incredible friends in the world....i had known it all along, but this weekend it has sunk in...if you are reading this, consider yourself a friend, because aquaintances do not exist in my snowglobe....to know someone but not be their friend is absurd to me.....
...to everyone, thank you for unlocking your opaque love to me and for stamping your beauty on my heart....
just when you think that God cant possibly bless you anymore
He does
and then you sit and wonder why He not only freely gives us His grace
He blesses us on top of that
...it perplexes me until i shake
....on another note, the past week or so i have learned that God has given me the best and most incredible friends in the world....i had known it all along, but this weekend it has sunk in...if you are reading this, consider yourself a friend, because aquaintances do not exist in my snowglobe....to know someone but not be their friend is absurd to me.....
...to everyone, thank you for unlocking your opaque love to me and for stamping your beauty on my heart....
just when you think that God cant possibly bless you anymore
He does
and then you sit and wonder why He not only freely gives us His grace
He blesses us on top of that
...it perplexes me until i shake